Apologizing has always been a tough thing for me, because it takes a lot if courage and tbh, sometimes I just don't have it, but I don't care about myself this time, I only care about you...so here we go
Dear ______ (you know who you are)
4 months ago I met you from a collab. Right away I knew we would be friends. You were funny, sweet and made me laugh so much. When you got Instagram we became a lot closer, and I will always be so thankful for the memories we shared together. You stuck by me when I disabled for the first time and when I was ever down you would be the person to check on me. You have done so much for me and I will never know how to repay you. I know you hate me right now, I know you never want to talk to me again, and tbh I understand it, but how can I not be upset about this?! I have been crying for hours now, I just lost one of my best friends therefore I left apart of me. What I said was terrible, wrong, stupid and just the wrong thing to do, but I would never want to hurt you or anyone. I'm not a bad person i'm not, as I said I want to be a social worker when I grow up, I want to make the world a better place that's why this is haunting me sooo much. I wish more then anyone that I could fix this but I can't, all I can say is sorry, and I know that won't fix anything because I keep saying SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY over and over again and eventually it just doesn't mean anything. I have never felt worse in my entire life, and honestly I'm stuck. Ok I admitted it! I don't know what to do here.....I can't fix this anymore, I can't do any of this anymore. If it was a week ago I could casually start up a convo with you and probably have a laugh attack.......but I can't do that anymore. I read what you wrote me "I trusted you" and you did, I'm sorry that I broke this trust. I'm sorry for everything I have caused. I'm sorry for the pain. I'm sorry I made you sad and angry. I'm sorry I said the things I said. I'm sorry I didn't talk to you about how I felt. I'm sorry I didn't put up an effort. I'm sorry I was such a terrible friend. I'm sorry I went behind your back. I'm sorry I ruined everything.
I'm sorry.......
