Why?

Why Am I Not Good Enough?

Why the hell am I not good enough? I try so fucking hard. Can't you see that? CAN'T ANYONE FUCKING SEE THAT? I'M TRYING SO HARD TO BE THE FUCKING PERFECT PERSON EVERYONE WANTS ME TO BE. I'M SORRY I CAN'T BE WHO YOU WANT. I'M SORRY I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. I'M SORRY I'M A SHIT FRIEND WHO CAN'T HELP ANYONE OUT WHEN THEY ARE FEELING LIKE ME. I'M SORRY.

God, I swear one day I'm gonna fucking shoot myself. I'm so fucking done with everything. 

I try so god damn hard to help to do well in school, and help out my friends, but apparently, I'M A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT
GOD FUCKING DAMN IT

HERE IS SOMETHING I HAVEN'T TOLD ANYONE
SO, SINCE LIKE 7TH GRADE, THERE HAS BEEN THIS THING

I'M BAD AT DESCRIBING,
BUT I'M FUCKING BAD AT EVERYTHING SO WHAT DO YOU EXPECT FROM ME?

SO LIKE, EVER SINCE 7TH GRADE, I'VE BEEN HEARING THIS PERSON TELL ME THINGS
BUT LIKE
THE VOICE IS ME, SO I GUESS ITS NOT TECHNICALLY HEARING VOICES

BUT THE THING IS, IT MAY BE MY VOICE, BUT I'M NOT THE ONE SAYING IT

DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?
AND IT, I, WHATEVER I SHOULD CALL IT, I KEEP HEARING THINGS LIKE
'KILL YOURSELF' 'YOU'RE WORTHLESS' AND YA KNOW, STUFF LIKE THAT
BUT I USED TO BE ABLE TO TUNE IT OUT S O WELL
BUT NOW ITS GETTING LOUDER, AND LOUDER AND IT WON'T STOP

I USED TO BE ABLE TO IGNORE IT, BUT I CAN'T

I CAN'T DO ANYTHING THOUGH, SO WHAT DID I FUCKING EXPECT TBH

BUT LIKE
I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT THIS TO ANYONE. MY BEST FRIEND (MY COUSIN) HAS PSYCHOSIS, SO SHE DEALS WITH HEARING VOICES A LOT MORE THAN I DO AND I DON'T WANNA SEEM LIKE A LITTLE BITCH
(EVEN THOUGH I AM)
I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY ITS GETTING LOUDER THOUGH

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO MAN 

GOD I'M SO FUCKING DONE