[2] him/her?✔

ㅡd u a p u l u h t u j u h.[I hate you,I love you]

"e..ee...itu...aku...rame banget aku jadi bingung"

padahal gue gak ngapa - ngapain sama Jaemin kok tapi rasanya kaya ke gep kalo gue lagi selingkuh ya

"oh, emang Jaemin gak ngasih tau aku lagi dimana?"

gue menggeleng

terus Jeno ngerangkul gue

dan ngebawa gue ke deket kue yang kebetulan ada nyokap bokapnya Jeno juga

gue pun sebagai calon menantu yang baik, gue salim sama mereka berdua

"abangnya Jeno kemana tan?"

"tau tuh dia galau pacarnya gak bisa dateng"

astaga

lebay deh abangnya

hehe peace bang

"ok, ternyata tamu yang kita tunggu dari tadi udah dateng" kata MCnya

jadi mereka nungguin gue dateng dulu baru mulai acaranya?

aduh meleleh aku hhhh

setelah nyanyi dan niup lilin

Jeno ngasih first cake nya yang jelas ke kedua orang tuanya

terus dia ngangkat satu kue lagi

"yang kedua bukan berarti gak penting, walaupun jadi yang kedua kue ini untuk orang yang cukup penting buat gue"

terus dia nyodorin kue itu ke gue

"ini pertama kalinya aku lewatin ulang tahun aku sama kamu"

ADUH

SELAMATKAN JANTUNG JIHAN

JIHAN GAK KUAT

MAU PINGSAN

"cieee pipi cewenya merah" kata para penonton

yha ketauan

abis itu gue nerima kuenya dan gue keliling - keliling sebentar buat ya food hunting hhhh

lalu gue mendapati Jaemin yang lagi duduk tapi gak ada makanan mau pun minuman di dekat dia

mukanya keliatan frustasi banget

gue duduk di samping dia

gue takut ini anak sakit atau gimana gitu kan gak lucu

"Jaem? what are you doing here? lo gak ikut makan atau minum atau nikmatin pesta?"

pas dia senyum

gue bisa ngeliat kalo senyumnya maksa banget dan mukanya pucet

"Jaem, lo sakit?"

"harusnya gue yang nanyain ini ke lo"

lah gak jelas deh nih anak

mabok kayaknya

"lo sadar gak? lo selama ini disakitin" kata Jaemin tiba - tiba

"siapa Jaem?"

"orang yang selama ini lo kira sayang sama lo, dia selama ini yang nyakitin lo"

abis ngomong itu

Jaemin berdiri terus pergi, gue emang mau minta penjelasan. tapi entah kenapa tangan bahkan seluruh anggota tubuh gue gak bisa menahan perginya Jaemin

gue cuma bengong di tempat sambil mikir

siapa orang yang selama ini sayang ke gue tapi dia ternyata nyakitin?

kalo ketemu orangnya, gue mau tampol biar gak kebiasaan itu orang

two face dasar

terus lamunan gue buyar karena Vio sama Vanya yang tiba - tiba narik gue

kalo narik buat makan sih gue gapapa lah

ini mereka narik gue ke panggung gitu

"ekhm permisi....

saya disini mau memepersembahkan pacar dari yang berulang tahun, katanya dia mau nyanyi buat pacarnya"

pas Vio ngomong gitu

rasanya mau gue jambak tapi semua orang udah pada ngeliatin gue

mampus ini gimana

akhirnya musiknya nyala

gue pernah denger lagu ini

yaudah gue nyanyi

Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me

I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

abis nyanyi, semua orang langsung tepuk tangan padahal menurut gue suara gue jelek banget hhh

dan pas gue turun dari panggung

Jeno meluk gue dan ngucapin makasih padahal ini gak ada apa - apanya bagi gue

gue jadi gak sabar besok hhh