The Mind Game

Fear

Fear filled my body as I heard a loud bag coming from Mums room, what was Dad doing to her? All she did was spill some water on the floor!? Another bang came, this time from their bathroom, followed by a blood curdling scream of terror, there was a sudden clash of metal onto the floor and an instant hallway full of pain.

What did Dad do? I had to investigate, see if Mum was okay, she was the only one protecting me from his addiction. The only one that cared about me, my scars made people think I was different from them, they made people think I was clumsy!? But they never knew my clumsiness was just a cover up from my Dads anger...

As I stepped out onto my long and cold hallway, the blood in my skin ran dry... Another ear piercing scream came from there room followed by Dad storming out, as he got the the stairs he stopped. I held my breath hoping he didn't spot me. Hoping he was just stopping for a breath, but no. Luck was not on my side today, he saw my eyes as tears formed in them.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING OUT OF BED AT THIS TIME!" He yelled at me storming in my direction, I panicked trying to think of something to say but all I could think of was the pain I heard in Mums voice...

"I-I-I uh I n-need a wee" I just about stuttered in time, he stopped right in my face. I could feel the anger oozing out of him almost suffocating me with its strength, he did not like my answer though, not one bit.

"I THINK NOT! GET BACK TO BED NOW" he screamed at me right up in my face. I quickly nodded and scampered back into my room. The one place I feel safe, the one place where no harm can get to me. At least that's what I thought...

"Karla, Karla, hey are you okay?" Jamie Questioned me waving his hand frantically back and forth in front of my face.

"Yeah I-I'm okay, uh? Where... Where are we?" I spoke out in a mere mumble, why does this happen to me so often? all I want to do is forget the past.

"We are at my house silly?! Now do you want to have your turn or are we going to change the game?"He said to me happily, how does someone simply be happy? I try so hard to be a normal happy teenager... But I can never find the happiness that everyone else just takes, takes for granted!

"Uh can we change the game?" I reply hoping for a happy reply, but all I got was a sad smile and a sigh, this reaction however, it was a usual thing... So it didn't surprise me too much I guess.

"What do you want to play then? What about 21? Or... uh, never have I ever? Or uh what about spin the bottle? If you know what I mean!" He replied more eagerly winking towards the last option, but I just smiled and just carried on as if he didn't.

"I think I like the idea of never have I ever! Or? Uh, maybe we could just watch a movie together?" I said happily to him, noticing a small twinge break out from within him.

"But we don't have any movies to watch though?! And no ones home, plus it's not like you haven't been seen naked before is it! You got loads of boys fucking you here there and everywhere!!" He moaned at me, a bit more angrily than planned at first, but that was it, I have finally lost it with him, I just can't quite believe he just scooped that low!

"You don't know me! Or what I have been through at all, fun fact I'm a virgin!.. and no! I'm not going to lose it to some stupid little boy that wants some shitty action at a lame sleepover!!" I yell to him anger building up like burning ice blocks in my bones, he thinks he can control me because of what he heard in some silly little rumors?! I don't think so! At least defiantly not today he won't!

"I-I am so sorry..." He replied in complete shock, he wasn't used to me being so up front to him and I can assume, by his facial expression, he defiantly didn't like being told of.

"Why do you think that you can assume such things?! You wouldn't like it if I started saying that you send dick picks to all the guys in our school would you!?" I scream back at him, okay maybe I'm being a little harsh... but in the end I guess life is harsh.

"I am I really am! Now... Uh, lets all just calm down... What movie did you want to watch? I'm sure I could ask my mum to use her Netflix account or something?" He slowly stuttered to me, very clearly trying to change the subject as fast as possible.

"And you think I can just calm down like that? No! Defiantly not an option here!" I say slightly more calm to say the least... But at that, still very tense and truly quite angry.

"Well... Uh, why don't we just... Uh... Go for a walk? Yeah a walk!? I think it might... Uh, clear our minds a bit?" He slowly spluttered this all out with a worried look plastered bright on his face.

"Fine! I need the air anyway... But I'm not going out because you said we should! I'm going out because I want to!" I say to him with a slight smile on my face.

"Okay good, lets... Lets just go now, grab your shoes and meet me downstairs in 5?" He says a little less tense than before.