Make The World Sing

Lost

I stare ahead of me aware that my friend is talking to me but lost in the letter in my hand. My letter that I've been waiting on for months is in my hand.

Dear Priscilla Smith, The words sting on the page. I read it faster and faster my heart pumping loudly.  My hands shake and sweat.

I get snapped out of my horrid moment by an annoyed friend, Aiden.

"Phil, are you listening to me?" His voice sings through my ears. I lift up the letter and turn it so he can read it and be just as scared as me and I won't have to talk hopefully, "Ah," He hums. "Washington State you're dream college. You got accepted be happy and stop looking like a ghost." He wraps his arm around me and I stay planted on the floor. I try to find the sarcasm in his voice, but there's none.

His arms let me go and shuts his locker close. He faces me and stares into my eyes. He puts one arm on my shoulder and moves his head to side. "What's the matter Phil?"

I sigh deeply. "I have no idea what I'm doing." I say and fall into his arms. He pushes me back and stares at me yet again. "I don't want to go to college in Washington. I like my job I make good money. Yet everyone is telling me this is what I must do." I say I feel tears flood my eyes. I blink them away.

He opens his mouth but the bell shrieks and scares us. He eyes travel back to mine. "Do what you want. Honestly you have a lot of money maybe you could wait until you're nineteen to go to college. I don't know." He pauses. "But I know we both want to ditch right now." His hand goes from my shoulder to mine and he pulls me downstairs.

"What about Taylor?" I ask quietly as we reach the first floor.

He looks down at me. "We know how my sister is. I'll text her and let her know we're picking her up, okay?"

We walk through the school doors. The horrible Illinois weather back at it again. Spring is here and it's still cold as hell. We walk to the lot and get into his car.

"The garden we go." He says as he starts the car. I make a small sound of excitement as we start to leave.

He looks at me and smirks. I raise my eyebrows at him and he returns his vision to the road. "So, how'd your date go last night?" He barely lets out the sentence before he bursts into laughter. I fold my arms across my chest. "I'm sorry. But you got yourself into this. No one in the world is as dumb as you."

Ah my coming out incident. I stood up in the middle of an assemble and announced to the whole school I was bisexual. Not the best thing to do, but then again not the worst. Everyone clapped and I got in trouble, but I regret my decision.

"She was so bad." I groan. "There's not a single descent girl in that school. And most guys I'm into just want sex with two girls." I say. His laughter fills the cars silence. "Yeah, go on enjoy my pain."

"I know you. You don't want a girlfriend you want a girl fuckbuddy." The truth hurts but he said it. And that's why I love him.

"Yeah, I just can't emotionally connect with these idiots. One day though. I'll have a full date and not just cut it short by fucking her." I remark with my charming sarcasm.

"One day." His voice echos mine.

We arrive at the garden. The single black car always there waiting for our arrival. I throw my phone in my pocket and let my badly dyed hair down. "Aiden are you ready for this." I say and point at him.

"Priscilla I will hurt you if you continue to sing that damn song." He says. He starts to blush and I mouth the song and dance around him. We start walking towards the indoor garden and I smile. Oh the memories. We come here almost every week, and each time I walk through the door I get hit with nostalgia. We've been coming here since sixth grade and it's now our safe spot.

"Oh, Aiden and Priscilla." Ms. Caroline greets us as we walk in. "I've been hoping you two would show up eventually. Well I'm not going over the rules you probably know them by heart. But I can't get in trouble so this time you guys have to pay."

He reaches for his wallet and gives her a twenty. We smile at her as she let us goes into the garden. The indoor garden is a small place that old people and us like to go to. There's colorful flowers everywhere and soft piano always playing in the background. The floor is full of grass that is perfectly green and smells amazing.

"Oh, you two should be at school." She remarks as we go to our spot.

"But we never are." Aiden responds behind him. She laughs fully and it fills the empty room.

I lay in the flowers and feel him lay right beside me.

No words are ever spoken when we come here. This is our time to think. To let our minds explore what we've been hiding.

I decided to explore Washington State. Washington State. The school I've dreamed about for years. It's sitting right in front of me. But I've found an amazing job. Creating music and doing what I love. The joy of no one knowing I create some of the top songs is amazing.

I get to make my music whenever I want. But not with college in the way. I couldn't skip class when I didn't feel good. I won't be the smartest one anymore making remarks on how the teacher messed up her facts. It'll be an alternate me. I needed music through the dark times and it got me places. I cannot be more grateful that I'm able to make a living off a music, but I always wonder how long this paradise will last.

But it's for the better. This is what I worked for. No one helped me. I did this. Am I really going to throw it away? My family wasn't there for me I was. I forced myself to do my work and be ten times smarter then every single kid in that school. I worked my ass off so I could get a full scholarship to college and I have it. What's more for me to have?

I chose to play music. To go unidentified so I can keep my school life. My choice. And I feel as if I threw it away. I refuse to throw it away. I put my arm over my stomach. This shouldn't be a choice. I can take a break or do music from school. I shouldn't feel as lost as I do. I'm not completely okay with moving either. Leaving my dad astray and my friends without me.

I feel a tap on my forehead. "C'mon big idiot." I hear his voice shiver. He must've been thinking about something scary too. "It's time to go get Taylor."

AN: Okay..So yeah. I actually feel confident in this book rather than the others