We're both crying and hurting. He leaned closer to me and put his forehead on mine.
'it hurts so much to see u crying this way knowing its my fault ' he whispered
No it wasn't just his fault. Dahil alam ko sarili ko at alam ng Diyos kung gaano ko kagustong makasama ang lalaking umiiyak ngayon sa aking harapan. Damn! I like him okay .No it's more than that but I can't say it, I won't say it dahil mas lalo lang lalala ang sitwasyon at mas lalo lang kaming masasaktan.
'it's not ur fault' I said habang nakayuko dahil hindi ko cya kayang tingnan sa mata. God he's hurting. I am too. Hindi ba pwedeng masaya nalang kami? Why can't we just be together bakit palaging may rason Kung bakit bawal? Bakit palaging may humahadlang? Yes, if there's a way I know I would have done it willingly to be with him and to show how much I wanted to be with him. Hindi itong iiyak kami dahil kahit kaylan hindi pwede.
'Lucas come on. Let's not break the thing that we had right now sasayangin paba natin ito? Let's just stick to the thing that would be permanent' I said habang sinusubukan kong kumawala sa hawak nya. But he didn't let me slip instead his grip tightened more.
'don't go yet please. Hirap na hirap na akong iponin lahat ng to ang nararamdaman ko, ang mga iniisip ko lahat! Dahil sayo' he bursted out. I can't look at him but he guided me and my eyes met his. His eyes are blood shot I can't take I look away but then again he wanted me to look at him kaya iginaya nya ang aking mukha.
'can't u feel it , Rein? Dahil ako? Damang dama ko at kahit anong pigil at pag rarason ko d ito nakakatulong' mariin nya pinikit ang kanyang mga mata.
'guess we don't share the same feelings at all luke dahil d ko alam kong anong feelings ang pinagsasabi mo' matapang kong tinitigan ang kanyang mata habng sinasabi iyon.
A tear fall from his eyes that made me shut my eyes and utter curses at my head.
'then what's the reason for this tears your shedding? Why are u hurting? Please... tell me' he pleaded. Sobrang sakit makitang cyang nag mamakaawa at sobra sobrang nasasaktan.
He's making his ways para masabi ko ang nararamdam ko. But I won't let him succeed I'll keep this stupid feelings by myself.
Nanghihina cya kaya madali akong nakawala sa hawak nya tinalikuran ko sya at humakbang palayo ng higitin nya ako at yinakap.
'enough with the walking just run away with me' he whispered at my ear damang dama ko ang sinabi nya nakakapanlumo. But my heart shattered more when he speak again ' I love you ' whole heartedly he whispered at wala na akong ibang nagawa kundi ang mag umiling at nagpupumiglas upang makawala sa kanyang yakap. Nagawa kong makawala sa kanyang yakap then i stepback and turned my back on him trying to hide my crying face. I stop and said
'We can't '
