A Love To Remember

Chapter 15: Continuation

"She's...she's gone." I said softly, almost out of voice. Napaawang naman ang labi niya sa narinig mula sa' kin and the next thing I knew, humihikbi na siya. Hindi ko na rin napigilan ang mga luha na kanina pa'ng gustong makawala, right now, we're both crying. We're both in pain.

This is the first time that I saw him cry, he's a tough man and once in a blue moon mo lang siyang makitang umiyak, I can't blame him though.

When Aga and I seperated without proper goodbye's and a break up scene (at least for me), I went to Batanes where my Mom is currently staying to somehow, ease the pain I'm experiencing.

I'm also depressed, mahal ko eh 'tas iiwan ako? I'm in the verge of mental breakdown, ni hindi na nga ako halos lumabas sa kwarto ko noon para kumain eh. Each day passed and it feels like hell for me, araw-araw akong pinapatay sa sakit and it sucks kasi ni hindi ko man lang nagawang labanan iyon.

One day, I found myself waking up in the morning because of so much pain somewhere in my abdomen. Sobrang sakit na halos 'di na ako makatayo, well, I did get up from bed and I was horrified after seeing my bed sheets covered with blood.

At first, akala ko, nadatnan lang ako ng monthly period but when realization finally hit me na parang ang daming dugo naman kung monthly period lang iyon, so, as I looked down to my tights, agad na nanlaki ang mga mata ko upon seeing fresh blood kept on pouring to the floor na para ba'ng sirang gripo. I screamed for help and the last thing I remembered, I saw my Mom entered my room then I passed away.

I was rushed to the hospital and thankfully, the fetus that's inside my womb was saved. Yes, I'm pregnant with Aga's. It m not really pleased to hear about it 'cause of course, who wants to see their child grow without a father's support? But then I realized na ay, maybe this is God's way of showing me na may isa pa'ng bagay akong dapat ilook forward kesa mawalan ng interes mabuhay.

Mabilis na lumipas ang mga araw, on my 5th month of pregnancy, we flew back to Manila at ayon kay Mommy, mas maasikaso ako ng mga doktor doon.

The day of my labor also happened so fast, 8 months palang iyong nasa tiyan ko and hell, it was painful. The pain was unbearable especially that ako lang magisa, there's no Aga beside me, ako lang talaga.

While giving birth, parang pinupunit ng sapilitan ang pagkababae ko. They're doing everything to ease the pain I'm into but they just can't. Anesthesia is not working for me either.

Nabunutan lang ako ng tinik when I finally gave birth, upon seeing my daughter, tila napawi ang lahat ng sakit na tinamasa ko. She's a premature baby so kailangan niyang mag undergo sa process of incubation.

Everything went so smoothly not until something unexpected happen, akala ko okay na ang lahat but I was wrong. Three days after, Sabel died. Hindi niya kinaya, she's too weak and mind you, kung sa tingin ko noong iniwan ako ni Aga at noong nanganak ako sa' kanya ang pinakasakit na nangyari sa' kin, no it's not.

Seeing her lifeless body in front of me stabbed my heart multiple times both mentally and emotionally. She's the only one that I had 'tas, nawala pa?

I've completely lost my interest to live. It took me months to recovered. It took me months to realize that Sabel wouldn't like to see her Mom in that way so I continued to live my life and go on with it kahit masakit pa rin.

After minutes of silence, my gaze went to Aga nang magsalita siya.

"Sabel.. Kung nasaan ka man, I hope you're happy and contented. Dad loves you so much honey, 'di man kita nakasama or nakita man lang-- I still love you.." wika niya habang nakatingin sa taas, mas lalo akong napaiyak dahil sa narinig mula sa' kanya.

He could've been the perfect father for our little Sabel. He could've been..

Napaangat ako ng tingin when Aga suddenly, carrased my cheeks wiping my tears away.

"Lea, alam kong gago ako pero mahal kita at iyon ang totoo." he whispered and I can feel my heartbeat beating uncontrollably.

"Ikaw lang ang minahal ko mula noon hanggang ngayon. Para kay Sabel, para sa'yo, para sa' kin, let's start over?" he asked na ikinagulat ko.

"I know this isn't the right time to ask you this but no one can't stop a man who's madly inlove, right? Kung ayaw mo, kung hindi mo na ako mahal, then I'm ready to court you and let you remember how much I love you and how much you love me back then.." he added as he lean to kissed me on my lips, my body was not cooperating as well and it is so numb to move.

His kisses we're irresistible that I found myself responding to those. This is wrong. This is damn wrong! May asawa't anak siya and here I am kissing him? No one can stop a woman who is also inlove.. Bahala na!

After the kiss, I was the first one to break it as I catched my breathe.

"You're a jerk, you caught me off-guard!" I exclaimed while chuckling, a smirked formed on his face.

"Well I guess, that's a yes?" he asked. Wala eh, mahal ko pa rin eh.

"Probably, yes!" I answered and again, he claimed my lips as he snake his arms around my nape.

"I missed you so freaking much!" I said in between our kisses, this feels so good!

Agad akong napabitaw sa' kanya when we heard honks of cars everywhere, napatingin ako sa labas and I was surprised to see na medyo gumaan na ang traffic, in fact, ang layo na ng agwat namin sa mga sasakyan sa harap namin kanina!

"Panira, tss." I heard Aga murmured as he turned his engine on and started to drive, napailing na lang ako.

"Okay lang iyan, babes." I said absentmindedly. Did I just called him babes? What the?

He took a glance at me and he's wearing his mapanukso smile as he return his gaze at the road immediately.

"Anong sinabi mo?"

"Hmm, okay lang iyan?"

"Hindi, iyong huli!"

"Iyan?"

"Hindi, you said something and I heard it! Iyong huli nga!"

"Letter N?"

"Lea!" he called in his warning tone so I raised my hands in surrender.

"Fine, I said babes!" I said in defeat, a sly smile was plastered on his face upon hearing it.

"Naks, I love you babes!" wika niya.

"I love you too!" I answered not minding everything, the consequences and so.

Being with him again for the second time around is just indeed, a love to remember..

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Note: I SURVIVED! Ang haba ng chapter na' to jusko, kahit na parang rushed siya, still, I hope it's not crappy enough.

Hinati ko ang ALTR sa dalawang part and the first part just ended ^^ The second part is on its way soooo be ready for more :))