Emily

Chapter 1

I woke up on morning wondering why I still exist in this world? But then I remembered it's because of family and friends and blah, blah, blah I want to have a real reason, I want something worth living for otherwise I'm just stuck in this never ending game of life. It sucks knowing that there's someone out there who is the one person your suppose to marry and grow old with, but what if they aren't what you hoped them to be? Then what do you get to look for someone who reaches your standards? My life hasn't been the best as a kid growing up I've always had 'issue's' with everyone and everything unlike my siblings I wasn't handed everything I had to work for it and I still do. I'm 17 and already looking for a place to stay because honestly anything would be better then here. My parents never finished high school so they were only limited to a few jobs now they want me to be successful because they couldn't and honestly it's a lot of pressure I don't wanna fail in life honestly no one does but faith chooses your destiny. I've had a lot of bad realitionships and I honestly have just stopped trying to find love but I can't im helpless I see everyone else with the someone and there happy so why can't I? I know everyone says to be "patient" and just let life handle your destiny, but it's hard to just sit around and wait. So I've decided that I'll wait and if doesn't work out then I'll just figure something out.

I hear my alarm go off but I just ignore it then the beeping kept happening so I turned it off and slept again. You see I'm not a big fan of waking up early and getting ready to go to some prison.