'Relive'

Chapter 7 - Part 1

‘’What do you mean?’’ he said as he enclosed his hands into mine and looked deep into my eyes.

‘’This’’ I said, ‘’I can’t do this anymore, hooking up there and then. I really like you and I’m only gonna get hurt at the end.’’

He ran his hand through my face and kissed me slowly and passionately, ‘’Lena, I like you too, but I’m afraid I’ll hurt you.’’ he paused, ‘’I don’t want to do that to you!’’. He kissed me again and with every kiss I wish he could be mine, and mine only. ‘’I don’t want to,’’ he repeated, ‘’because I think I, love you.’’

When I heard him saying those words, I felt heart beat faster and louder. I never thought he would say those three words. We have been really close these last seven months, we would tell each other everything! We would secretly sneak out in the middle of the night and meet up at McDonalds and talk for two hours eating ice cream and French fries. We had become the best friends. He had told be me about his father’s alcohol problem, his bullying days. I know, you wouldn’t expect a guy, handsome as Jonah, would have bullying problems. But yes he did, and he cried on my shoulder about them. I cared for him and would hate it to see him suffer. And yes I did come to terms about saying that I love him to myself, but I’m a girl. We have a tendency to fall to easy, at least I do. ‘’So what’s stopping you?’’ I asked him.

He looked away, sighed and strongly grabbed my hand and walked hurriedly to the middle of the pub, ‘’This is Lena,’’ he shouted at the top of his lungs. My face turned red as everyone turned to face us, ‘’she’s my girlfriend and I love her!’’ he declared to everyone. He turned to face me and said, ‘’You’re mine. You’re my girl.’’. At that moment, I felt all the pieces fitting into place. I was overwhelmed! He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me to deep and passionately that it could cure anything. The rest of the night was just truly amazing. I couldn’t have asked for a better Christmas, it was all that I have wished for, Jonah.  Cher was so happy for me, it was like the love declaration for was her. On the other hand, Desiree could kill me by her stare. She didn’t speak to me the whole night, she kept making excuses to avoid me.

I remember when we went back to school after the holidays, we walked the school hallway holding hands. I felt secure and important having Jonah with me. Then came Cher and Desiree. Desiree was friendly again, which means either that she wasn’t pissed at me or that she never had a crush on Jonah. But I guess I was wrong about that. She had a major crush on him.

We had been together for almost two years and 8 months and I got pregnant. Seeing things now, Desiree did try to break us apart but she never succeeded. My miscarriage was the perfect way for her to break us apart, by twisting it to her own advantage. By texting Jonah from my phone that I had an abortion and never wanted to speak to him again. While I sat alone, in a plain waiting room, waiting for the doctor to call my name. Alone to never hear her heart beat.

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Tom looked up at me, ‘’It doesn’t seem something small,’’ he said as he took a sip, ‘’tell me maybe I could help you.’’

I sighed, ‘’Well, I had this friend, who was never a true one, and lied to someone in my name to get what she wanted or revenge. I don’t know what she was seeking for.’’ I said to him as I shook my hand. I really didn’t know whether Desiree did this on a manner of revenge or a way to get Jonah. ‘’Speaking of the jealous bitch’’ I could not believe my eyes. There she was, the queen bitch, the back stabber, the double-faced friend. She walked into the coffee shop all jolly and smiling, ‘’Desiree?’’ I questioned my own eyes. I didn’t threw a chair to her face because I could have mistaken the women and I didn’t want to get fired.

                See saw me and jumped twice on the spot and ran to me, ‘’AAA! Lena! I didn’t know you worked here!’’ she shouted. Man I hate her, she has the courage to talk to me? Look at her all pretending that everything is fine. ‘’What are you up to girl?’’ she asked.

                Nothing much, just planning how to kill a bitch and by bitch I mean you. That’s what I wanted to say but I’m too nice to say that, ‘’Hey, I moved here.’’ I said, ‘’and this is where I work.’’ I kept it short and simply, ‘’And you? What brings you here?’’ I asked politely.

                She popped her bubble gum and ran her hand through her hair, ‘’Oh nothing, I’m here with my man.’’ she said. Her man? I’m so sorry for him. He has no idea what’s in for him. I don’t want to sound bitchy, but come on, who would do that to a friend. ‘’Here he comes. Darling!’’ she said as she waved to her man.

                ‘’Jonah?’’ what the hell!? Is this really or a dream? He was in my bed an hour ago! What? Is he freaking blind or what? He came last night to my house crying his heart out in the middle of the night, is he for really? Jonah? I must be dreaming. Really, Jonah? That manipulative bitch!

 (to be continued)