thantophobia {ryden}

northern downpour sends it's love

i exhaled and saw the puff of my breath carried away in the breeze. it was freezing outside, and yet there i was sitting in the grass. the water of the lake rippled like silk and shone like slivers of glass. the presence of the boy next to me was overwhelming as we both looked to the clouds overhead, passing like hazy dreams. ah, brendon urie. i'd say he's the love of my life, and we aren't even dating. i look at the way he bites his lip as he ruffles his hair. how his glasses every so often fall to the edge of his nose and he brings them back up. how his eyes sparkle when he's happy. how when he winks he blushes automatically. his laugh is the cutest thing ever. i'm just in love with him in general. i sigh. i feel him turn and i look at him. his copper eyes sparkle slightly in thin rays of sunlight. "you okay ryan?" he asks quietly, looking mildly concerned. i give him a questioning expression. "you sighed pretty loudly, are you good?" he interrogates. shit, he heard me. i run my hand through my hair and look away. i can feel that i'm blushing. "yeah, um im fine." i stutter a little, trying to hide my blush. "okay" i put my head in my hands and i peek through them to look at him. he's still looking at me, but now with a warm smile. i drop my hands and gaze back out to the lake before i feel an arm sneak around my shoulder. i blush deep red. brendon puts his head on my shoulder and i smile. "i know the worlds a broken bone, but melt your headaches call it home..." he softly starts singing. "hey moon, please forget to fall down. hey moon, don't you go down." i finish gently. he glances at me and breaks out into a grin. "you remembered the words" he exclaims, somewhat surprised. "of course i did, h-how could i forget them" i stutter and look down. "uh i actually wrote that um," brendon stuttered. "yes, bren?" i softly ask as i see him blushing. "i wrote that song f-for you, ryan." i look at him, the biggest smile on my face. "r-really?" "ye-eah fuck im so sorry i know that's stupid i shouldn't have said that fuck-" i shut him up by planting a soft kiss on his lips. i pull back almost immediately and begin to stand up, embarrassed. brendon grabs my wrist and gently pulls me back into a sitting position facing him. "i guess i've kinda liked you for a while now...' i mumble, and look into brendon's eyes. he tilts his head to the side slightly. "me too" he murmurs, before pulling me into a kiss.