I hate feeling like this. I want to be able to be happy but there's always something getting in the way. It frustrates me. Whether it be a person or just emotions. I feel like a bad person, and that I've let her down when I'm not able to call back. I would give anything to talk to her. She has to know that. It kills me that I'm sometimes not able to. I want her to be happy, I want to be the reason she's happy. I don't want to screw up anymore.
