~~Why Me Out of Everyone?~~

Why me? Out of Everyone one else? Why choose me? Out of thousands, you choose me. What's so special about me? I'm not pretty. No where from decent. I have scars on me. My face, arms and leg. I'm no one special. I'm an outcast, a alone person. Someone who people hate. Dislike and ignore. How can someone love that?

A quiet girl in class, who wears dark make up in order to try to cover herself with a mask to prevent people from making fun of her and making herself feel insecure. She doubts herself everyday, telling herself why can't she be beautiful like her friends, or why does she even have friends? Why does the boy she love so much, can't see what she sees? A ugly pitiful weak girl. Why does things have to be like this? When she wants to stand up for herself, she can't bring herself to do it.

Because she's scared. She wants to try new things. Make the people she loves happy....make her puppy happy.....her love of her life....the person who she wants to spend her whole life with before it's gone.....before everything ends terribly.....until that someone dies and tears her world apart....because he is her world. Without him, she's nothing. She'll fall right into the darkness again. Doubting herself again, adding pretty cuts to her arms, knowing she isn't good enough.....knowing she isn't good enough to even save the one she truly loves.......her boyfriend in this time and place....He loves her doesn't he? Of course, right?

Why me? Out of everyone else, why me? There's beautiful girls out there, and you choose me. I don't understand. I want to believe I'm beautiful, but I really can't bring myself to look in the mirror and say "You actually look beautiful for once." That's something that can't be done. It's something I can't do no matter what.....my love please forgive me....for I don't believe your words no matter how much I try and add many times you tell me....I love you. Please see past this all...I need help....though I really don't understand how you can ever escape your own mind?

Love, Your Kitty~~~~

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