Her side

chapter 1

can i just say that i tried

let the record show that i tried letting go of my anger

that i tried to forgive and forget 

but one more look at their smug faces and i would have scratched their faces like a wild cat or dog i don't know i never really paid attention

so here i was standing outside my old apartment

which i had once shared with the guy i thought i would marry and live happily forever after with 

you know that charming boy in the movies who the heroine chooses and falls madly deeply in love with 

I was supposed to be that girl and he was supposed to be that boy

but somewhere the script went wrong and we werent those people anymore, he was still that boy but i was no longer his heroine

we had barely lived in that that house for two months, i had recently turned eighteen and we both had wanted to get married right out of high school

I had everything picked out

the perfect venue

the perfect dress

the perfect honeymoon destination 

i didnt even know when it happened or when it had started 

when the two people i had trusted my life with fell in love and decided that they should marry

on my wedding day

while i stood by the side humiliated and angry and hurt and lost

lost because my maid of honor was marrying the groom

lost because she had always been there for me and now?

 i did not know where to run or who to run too

so here i was standing outside my house

what does a girl do when her fiance married the maid of honor

does she throw a fit or cry or just smile and let them walk all over you like they always had

and always would

I let out a resigned sigh and turned 

i could always move far away and never look back go the college that we were supposed to attend together or maybe i could just drop out

i know that sounds pathetic and why should i give up an education for a guy

but in the small town of riversworth me going with him would be taken as a sign that i still loved him after all that he had done to me 

i stared at the night sky and felt my eyes tear and i angerily rubbed my eyes

today was supposed to be perfect it was supposed to be the it day

my dream wedding 

i would show them

those two smug sons of b!#s that i was not one to be messed with

i would walk into a room with the two of them in there and pretend like they didnt mean anything to me 

i could do this no matter how much it hurt or how much my heart broke at the prospect

if those two did not care about me 

then i wouldn't either

i was tired of being the pushover that everyone took advantage of 

i was tired of being that girl who looked good as arm candy 

i was going to do better than that

as i stared at the slowly brightening sky, as i stared at the beginning of a new day

i knew that i was never going to be the same again

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this is a work in progress so please do tell me where you think i went wrong :)