~~Doubting Yourself~~

Have you ever doubted yourself where you feel useless to others? Have your friends tried to stop your doubting by telling you, you shouldn't because you're beautiful? Does your boyfriend/girlfriend try to help but just isn't working but for a mere 5 minutes then disappears?

You Ugly, Disgusting, Fat, Worthless Bitch!!! Why can't you just be beautiful!!!!!! Why do you have to be the person who hides behind the mask? I want to run into a corner and just cry, don't you? wouldn't that be nice, yes? I hate society and bullying...do you cut yourself to relieve and distract yourself from such thoughts?

You know what? You are Beautiful no matter what you say. Don't listen to those stupid ass preppy Bitches who think less of you. You know what? I bet their jealous because you have something they don't, and that's a heart and beauty they'll never have!!!! Your beautiful :3

(but me? I'm left out of that group because I am the girl who hides her own feelings and emotions from others to not hurt anyone) that's okay though. :3 As long as your happy, I'm happy. <333

Then there's others who wants to believe that you are beautiful but you just can't bring yourself to say and believe those two words "Your Beautiful." You just agree and nod your head that you agree to then that you are, but it's just eating you away that the fact that your not beautiful, just.....an ugly, disgusting, fat, worthless bitch......then you ask silently if someone can help you. But when you do receive that help, you push it away because you know it's just a lie....even the one you love is lying to you....they keep saying your beautiful but really in your own eyes....there's no beauty just ugliness and hatred towards yourself.....as you wonder why, just why would someone love a monster like you. You start crying and run to your room so no one can hear your cry as you try to silent those tears when they slide down your face......who can save you now, by your own mind and thoughts? Certainly not me.....

Love Kitty <333

1/15/14 - 1/16/14