Thoughts I have and things I have to say.

The truth

I am a fifteen year old kid trying to make his place in the world. I have an amazing girlfriend that if given the time could be the girl of my dreams. I have little friends, the ones I have I trust with my life but not with my girl. I envy the powerful and respect the weak. I have many ideas on how to plan my future but it seems that the person I want there wants to leave. People think it's easy being smart but it is a burden. You overthink, overestimate, and realize that the world is not as smart as you. If you are smart people think you are ignorant because you are different. I have many dreams and I am passionate about life but people find me weak. Weak because I don't like the world and want to change it. Weak because I try to learn from the past and don't trust easily. It doesn't make me weak it makes me cautious and weary of my own emotions. If I go over the edge I don't hurt you physically unless you are a man and deserve it. If you drive me over the edge I ruin you and in the end I succeed. The best revenge is success. People have said I am not the man in my relationship and that is wrong. A false curtain has been hung and no one knows that in order to be the man you take charge in hard situations and defend. There is no dominant one in relationships. If they are both dominant that is where the real, passionate, and loyal relationships are. I love my girlfriend and our relationship's fight for power my make us fight but I am glad to know my girlfriend is strong. I just wish she saw how strong I really am. Sorry to rant, this is just my life and I need to talk. People I talk to say simple responses or make me feel down. It sucks being a teenager, especially then you are unique and different. I hope people understand me better because of this.