How Did We Get Here?

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    "Take me back Ashlyn. You know I-" Alex says, stuttering and stumbling on his words. He is currently begging on his knees on the steps of my Boston U apartment, crying. I'm not putting up with his shit anymore.

     "No. You cheated on me. Don't you dare say you love me now. Because you never did." At this point I have no sympathy for him.bWith that, I slam the door in his face.  

      We dated for 4 years, from 16 to 20. Every lie he told me was a lie in a lie. Alex would say he loved me, but he didn't. He would say I was the one. But he had to go and fuck that Carlee bitch, and now we're broken up.

  And I don't even care. This is another step towards finding my soulmate. The person who will love me until my last breath. I look forward to the day I meet him.

  "Ash! Let me in! My key is in there!" Erin yells, banging on the door, snapping me out of my daydream. Erin is my roommate,  and ultimately my BFF. Sure enough, her key is on my nightstand.

   I open the door to her, and a shocked look overcomes me. A tall, brown haired man holding a guitar stands behind her. He looks so familiar. Then it hits me.

Erin is dating Shawn fucking Mendes.

"And who is this man?" I ask, wiggling my eyebrows. She gives me a glare then turns back to Shawn.

  "My boyfriend." She mutters. Shawn complies by kissing her briefly, causing Erin to shriek.

"COOTIES!" So he pulled back. Damn, I want a man to look at me like he looks at her. The love is just burning in his eyes.

   One day that will be me. He will be amazing in every way. But I'm me. How could anyone love me? I've been with 10 boys already, and they all cheated on me. Because I wasn't good enough. How will I ever be good enough?

A/N
      The picture at the top is what I imagine Ashlyn would look like. That's actually me. I'll include Erin in the next chapter. Thanks for reading!
                                    Rhi