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Jays POV:
I'm Jay, I am quite the loner and I do not know why. I mean I'm funny, caring, understanding, romantic, I'm pretty amazing if you ask me. I guess now and days everyone goes for the "bad bitch" not me though, "bad bitches" have a known reputation of having drama 24/7 and I'm not about that. When you're the good guy you get stepped on and everyone takes advantage of you and that is such a terrible feeling. I spend most of my time at Barnes and Noble because I love the atmosphere and I love to read. Lowkeyly, I have this wild fantasy that the girl of my dreams will show up there one day and I'll have the courage to talk to her or maybe she'll be the brave one and talk to me and from there we'll be together forever or something. I know its dumb but its not a crime to have a fantasy!
Its Friday and I'm happy as hell about that because its like the appetizer to Saturday which is my favorite day. School also goes by faster on Fridays maybe because I goof a bit more than the rest of the days of the week. Yeah, I'm not the best student. The rules of the school don't really please me so therefore I don't follow them. Lets be honest, riding a bike in the halls got me faster to class so I don't see what the problem was there. Its all whatever though because its my senior year and I'll be out of here soon so its no big deal.
Anyway, back to my "love life" if that's what you even want to call it. I just want a girl that I can cuddle and spoil and just love with all my heart. I have an empty space in my heart and I feel like the only thing that can fill it is love and it drags me down because I can never find someone who truly loves me. Like I just want to love someone so bad, is that too much to ask? Its weird this empty space in my heart is the heaviest thing I have carried. That is probably why I'm so tired all the time and require caffeine to get me through the day. Even though I have this longing in my heart, I'm not searching for anyone because that requires energy I don't have and disappointment I can't handle. Damn, there I go again thinking about how single I am and missing everything the teacher has said. Well, its last period I don't give a shit!
Bell rings.
Well, its time to go to the best place in the world, Barnes and Noble! I honestly don't know why I don't work there I mean I'm there literally all the time I should might as well get paid for it. I swear I go there more than I go to school.
I'm here already and I guess I have a routine. I buy coffee at Starbucks, greet familiar faces, and go straight to the romance aisle. I don't consider myself as being a hopeless romantic well maybe a little bit I don't really know. I want to love and be loved but I don't want to hurt and be hurt. I've been there multiple times before and those memories constantly replay over and over in my head. I guess this is my favorite aisle because for a couple of chapters the space in my heart is filled and I feel the sensation of love.
I walk up and down the aisle searching for a book I haven't read before.
I should really talk to the manager about adding some more LGBT books in this aisle because I swear I've read them all.
