Eccendentesiast

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I clutch my pillow tighter to my chest and I sob into it, trying to make as little noise as possible.
I don't understand what I do wrong to make people hate me so much.
I cry till my eyes are red, and I sob until my chest hurts.
The pain never ends, but Tyler can never know. I already burden him enough. It would just add onto his stress to know I'm depressed.
I'm so sleep deprived, I don't even know how long I've been awake. I've tried sleeping pills. I've tried alcohol. I've tried everything I could just to try and get some sleep but it never works.
"Hey guys it's wildcat here and today I'm gonna be opening a loot crate real quick so let's go!" I hear my brother shout from his recording room. I sigh and try to regain my breathes.
I remove the pillow from my lap and stand up, waiting for a moment so I don't get dizzy.
I sigh and walk to my door, hesitating for a moment before slowly opening it. I should not be up at this time. Tyler would kill me if he saw me wandering.
I step out into the hallway. I pause and listen. "You fucker!" I hear him scream. Good he's still recording. I tip toe silently to the bathroom. Feeling the inside of the bathroom wall looking for the switch. I find it and flip it on, and quickly enter the bathroom.
I sigh and look at myself in the mirror. My dark brown eyes have dark bags underneath them to match. My dark brown hair is tangled and dull.People wonder how Tyler and I are siblings. While he inherited our dads blue eyes and blondish hair, I inherited our mothers dark brown eyes and hair. We don't look that similar at all, Tyler and I. I look sickly pale and I have started to loose weight.
I sigh and begin to brush out my hair, then brush my teeth.
I glance at the clock on the wall. 5:30 huh...it's so late. It's almost day break.
I turn on the sink and splash some water on my face to wake me up some. It didn't work.
I turn off the sink and dry my face. I take one last glance in the mirror before turning out the light and leaving the bathroom. I quickly walk to my room as I hear Tyler saying goodbye to his friends.
I go to my door and quietly shut it. I run to my bed and jump on it, pulling the covers over my head. I hear Tyler open his door, then the sound of his footsteps fill my ears.
I hear a sigh before my bedroom door creaks open slowly. Footsteps near my bed.
A weight dips down at the end of my bed near my feet.
"I'm sorry I haven't been there for you. I know you're hurting. I'm your brother, I notice when you're sad. God I'm so sorry Amber" Tyler whispers. He lets out a sigh before leaning up and removing the blanket from my head. He leans forward and kisses my head before muttering a goodnight. He gets up and waddles to my door and leaves my room, shutting it.
Tears fill my eyes. He doesn't know the half of it.

Yoo it's Amber! I did not write this chapter, Madeline did. But anyways... I just wanted to say hi, and sorry for our inactivity. We have lives. And as Madeline would say, Stay salty as fuck!
Hi it's me Madeline. Amber and I are writing fanfics about eachother,so go check out the one she's making about me!
Also,when Amber is not looking,steal her wemons!