I'm A Random Piece Of Shit So Here's A Diary? About That.

I Want You By My Side.

When we first started, I got caught up.

Caught up in your false kindness.

Caught up in your gentle touch.

Caught up in the way you slurred your words and how stupid but smart you were.

Caught up in the way you looked at me. Your eyes shined brighter then the sun. Your full lips curling up into a wide grin. You looked happy, I should've known you didn't feel happy.

Caught up in the lies, saying if I protect you, you'll protect me.

Caught up in the deals we made, the plans we crafted, the minds we'd blown, the lives we took.

Caught up in that moment you took me to the moon, when you grabbed me by my waist and sucked me into your warm embrace.

You told me you loved me, I turned into Silly Putty, I told myself,
"You are my forever."

That day we made love, or so I thought, but truly it was just sex. It was rough and cold what happened to your gentle touch? Where was your warmth?

You blindfolded me, and guided me in the wrong directions that I thought were right, because that's how it felt.

That's how it always feels.

11/18/17