Forbidden Sex God (SGS#7)

Chapter 13

halos matahimik ako. "m–moris, he raped me. he molested me, matagal niya ng gustong gahasain ako. nasa pilipinas palang ako. no, no he took me. he said, if i don't he will kill me. he will kill me and he will next him, nirape niya ako at hindi niya ako tinigilan—" napatayo ako.

"stop this, now." napasigaw nalang ako, ginawa niya naman ang sinabi kong pigilan at icontrol si Victoria na mawala sa session na iyon. I can't take this anymore and I want to ask her personally instead.

this is not happening!

~.~.~

"Nique.." (nick)

tawag niya naman sa akin. "Moris, he did this to you?" umiyak itong tumango sa akin, hindi ako makapaniwala. Moris was supposed my bestfriend! kaibigan kong akala ko kaibigan ko talaga, kaya ba nawala siya after she left me. dahil sinundan niya si Victoria?

Right, ten years ago maybe one month when she left. kasama ko si Moris magkasama kami at inaya ko pa siyang uminom I was young then no one let me drink but Dwayne was kind of me letting me drink for that just a day. I told him i know Victoria was in Russia.

Oh, fuck! kasalanan ko?!

"Dominique, ngayon lang to. malinaw ba?" boses ni dwayne na nirolyohan ko naman ng mata, i just say yes and we went inside, kasama ko pa naman si moris kwento niya he is also broken hearted. I just don't know what happened ayaw niya rin naman ikwento o pagusapan so, i just let him. sino ba naman ako para mangusisa sa problema ng iba. hindi ba? i think, may nililigawan na ngang iba yan.

I giggles and take some drinks. mga babae, hindi ko ba alam bakit madali sakanila na mangiwan pero kapag iniwan sila maninisi sila pero kapag sila ang ngiwan parang mas nasasarapan pa sila sa buhay nila na masaya samantalang iniwan nila ano? broken, miserable at sirang sira. Victoria left me a month ago at masakit sa aking wala siya sa tabi ko, she left me broken and empty. miserable like i wanted to die.

"man, tell me.."

tumingin ako kay moris. "anong probelema?" he has no idea. ininom ko ang alak sa baso ko at tinignan muli siya, Moris is the person who keep listening in how nonsense i am talking about. siguro nga nakakahiyang I am acting gay to be like this. bakit, ako lang ba? ako lang ba yung lalaking naging miserable ng ganito ng dahil sa babaeng iniwan ako sa ere? no! hindi lang naman ako yung ganito. there is a lot of man who become so shattered as broken because of a woman.

i drink. "she's in russia.."

"who?" tanong naman niya na para bang hindi niya alam kung sino ang tinutukoy ko tinignan ko siya hanggang mapatango nalang siya at maintindihan niya ang tinging ibinigay ko, just that look. "oh, victoria." yeah.

i nodded. "i know she's just there." dahil isang bansa lang naman ang gusto niya puntahan mula noon, hanggang ngayon. we were a kid she said, she wanted to visit russia. i remember mom offered her to study in russia. malamang, tinanggap niya na yon kaya niya ako iniwan.

that bitch. i gave everything but what did she do? iniwan niya ako sa ere kaya naman sinu-sumpa ko talaga, she will never like to comeback here if she tried.

my fault, kasalanan ko kung bakit iyon ngyari sakaniya because i was once told Moris she was in russia it was my fault. i put here in danger, napasapo ako sa mukha that makes victoria worried about me.

"kasalanan ko pala." wika ko.

nagkunot siya ng noo. "sigurado ako wala pa sa russia si Moris that will be still happening. it will be still happening, Dominique." tama naman rin siya na maari paring mangyari ang lahat ng iyon kahit wala si moris. still, now we had lead kailangan nalang malaman kung nasaan nga ba si Moris Lavrov, malalaman ko rin kung saan siya nagtatago and he can't hide forever.

he cupped my face. "it's not your fault, love. wala kang kasalanan mahal, tandaan mo yan na kahit kailan hindi naman kita sinisi so don't be so hard with yourself my love." ayokong sisihin maski siya, hindi niya naman kasalanan kung nagahasa siya. kasalanan ito ng mga lalaking 'yon, wala silang kaluluwa.

"and not your fault too.."

she chuckled. "I have an idea anong magandang gawin ngayon habang nanonood sa netflix.." ngisi niya sa akin.

para akong nanigas sa kinauupuan naming dalawa tumayo siya and her finger are seductively telling me to follow her, parang nanigas rin ang alagang nagtatago sa suot kong pangibaba.

fuck. "wait for me, love." habol ko naman.