After waiting for about an hour Nurse Hannah came back with papers in hand and a doctor trailing behind her. I had no idea what was about to come. Nurse Hannah told my mum to sit down as this news might be a bit shocking. Oh great...
"I'm sorry to say this Mrs Blake but your daughter has a case of lung cancer. Now it is treatable but Amy has only a 2 in 10 chance of living more than 5 more years." Nurse Hannah tried to explain as best she could. My mum burst out into tears but I was stronger than that.I could see this coming in a weird way that only I could understand. My dad had lung cancer and died right after I was born. It was the same with my Grandma, she only got to see my dad grow to the age of 4. If I was going to be like them then I would be killed by this disease, there was no way around it.
I tried to comfort my mum as best I could while Nurse Hannah explained that the doctor would be giving me chemotherapy every couple of weeks for the next month or so. After that month, I would have a check up to see if the cancer is increasing/spreading or if it is decreasing. But for now there isn't much else to do. Just to wait some more. If lung cancer is going to be the thing to kill me then I will spend the rest of my life waiting. Right now I'm just a grenade waiting to explode. Just a part of the tiny fraction of the world's population that has been chosen to deal with this.
Thinking about all of this made me forget there was anyone else in the room. I'd forgotten that the doctor was telling me about my chemo schedule. I zoned out. I didn't need to hear all of this right now, neither me or my mum were ready to be rushed into this way of living. From what I did hear the doctor saying, I was starting meds tomorrow and I would lose my hair and be at loss of breath for a while. The cancer in my lungs meant that I would get a liquid forming in my lungs, meaning I would have to have oxygen tanks with me all the time. Nurse Hannah said that I was allowed vistors in here till 10pm. How was I going to tell Josh this. And how was I meant to tell my best friend, Tess, she was always worrying about me!
I got wmy phone out from under my pillow, where I had placed it when Nurse Hannah walked in, and texted Josh to call me, this was gonna be a hard phone call...
