Overall Confused

The Beggining

Here I am. Sitting on my chair, drawing and thinking. Its the first day of school again.
Though I tried to resist going to school I have no choise. I walked excitedly as I pass through strangers who were finding their rooms.
I searched all of the rooms' paper sticked on their door for my name.
Until I went and finally checked the pilot section; the section where people with high grades are in. I saw my name on the paper.
I gasped in disbelief. I didn't want to go there. But students from other sections did.
Desperate to go to a section that you will regret choosing. But I didn't have a choice.
I sat there quietly as I wait for friends who I might be classmates with.
Everyone knew that being in there was a dream come true. Not for me atleast.
I didn't have any friends there either exept for my smart friend. I stayed quiet in class trying to pay attention to the teachers.
I felt so out of place since everyone there was so active and smart.
I felt lonely because my seat was far away from my besyfriend.