the truth

Noah- he is 16, he looks just like his dad. I've known the family all my life, their daughter Zoey is my best friend, but I've been in love with Noah since I've started coming around and hanging out with Zoey. Noah he's everything a girl could ask for black hair, blue eyes and the star quarterback of our high school. 

Zoey's not far behind him she's got  beautiful blue eyes, long black hair, big butt. She's also the head cheerleader, but she's my best friend, she's also the only reason I'm a cheerleader. With out her I would be the loner at this school. She's the one who told me to follow my heart. 

I'm just a short red head, my hair's not long it's not always shinny, I'm not skinny like everyone else on the team. I hate the way I look most of the time.

"AzReal.. Are you paying attention?"

"Um. no sorry what did you say!" She went on teaching again and I went back to thinking about Noah again. 

The bell rings and I'm out of that class I've have always disliked math but there's times I like it. I walk out and look and see Noah with one of he's girls, it makes me sick, I never see what I like in him. I've never looked at anyone else the way I look at him. "AzReal..... wait up, girl you walk to fast whats gotten into you sweetie pie?" 

I couldn't tell her it was her brother that would kill her. 

"It's nothing you just know how much I always want to get out of math class." we just walk to our next class with her telling me about her boyfriend Tommy. I nod and smile even though I"m not paying attention. The rest of the day goes by fast. We have a football game later tonight so we're all getting ready to leave when Noah was beating up he's own team mate, if they can't get along how are they going to play in the game like a bunch of animals. I looked away because I really didn't need to be in his mess. 

Of curse Zoey left my to hang out with the other girls on the team. "Does she leave you all the time?"

I turned around to see Michelle, me and her ain't like the other cheerleaders we like books and doing our homework, I know we sound like a bunch of nerds but we don't care, we like it that way.

"Yeah she does but I'm used to it by now, what about you?"

"Yeah the same but they need me because I'm the one who helps her with the dance's ." That was the first time we hung out and it was actuly nice to have someone besides Zoey. 

Two weeks passed by a blur Zoey and I haven't hung out that much, it was like we both were pushing each other away an for some odd reason it wasn't horrible. 

It was was my sixteenth birthday and Zoey wasn't here I know we haven't talked but she's still best friend an I wish she was here. 

I had a black dress on with my hair in waves, no shoes on my feet because we all know how much I hate them. 

beep beep.. "AzReal my best friend I'm sorry I cant be there for you on this big day I hope you understand one day but I know you wont today, me and my family have been keeping a big part of us from you and I'm sorry for the way I'm tell you I just couldn't tell you in person." 

I had to stop and think about all this like she couldn't tell me some other time no everything has to be her way or it's the highway.

"I'm... well me and most of the school are in the mafia, there are a few low level gangs. I could tell you have had a crush, on my brother for years now. I didn't tell him, that should be your job.

"I hope one day you'll understand till then I'm leaving but just know I'll always have eyes on you."

How do you understand this type of thing like most of my life I've been lied to. Do you tell someone or are you the last one to know about this type of stuff, if she is in the mafia how come she never said something when I called her out on her bullshit? I have all these questions that I want to ask her but now I can't. 

It's been three days and I haven't been to school or been out of my room. 

"She didn't tell you because she didn't think you would have taking it this good"

I jumped off my bed , turned around just to be met with those big blue eyes that I have loved my whole life but its all been a lie. 

"Noah! What are you doing here?"

"I haven't seen you in school so I had to come see you, you know she never told me that you loved me, but I knew since we met?" Why did she keep if from him. He walked over and hugged me out of the blue, we've never hugged before what's so special about now I mean besides that Zoey is gone, why now? why me? how does this even happen?

I broke the hug up, looked out my window to wrap my head around all this, but I don't think that's going to happen for awhile. 

"So.. Your in the mafia ugh?" I just wanted to see what he would say, I wanted to see if he would have denied it.  

"I know she left you a note. So are you scared of us, but mostly me?"

Why would he care if I was scared of him it's not like he cares about me or does he?, maybe he cares and he just doesn't know how to show it like any other person.

"You do know I can have you're family killed right? Anyway she didn't want you to be scared of us. That's why she didn't want to tell you." He looked right at me and I got lost in his eyes like always.

"AzReal. why do you love me? I mean out of all the guys at school you pick me, how come?"

It took me a minute to answer. "Because when no one could get me to talk about something that happened you did. You don't treat me the same when it's just us, you care but when we're at school you treat me like a nobody. Why do you treat me like that for?" When I was done talking I just couldn't take it anymore, I cried because when I turn around he wont be there this is how it always goes. I was right he was gone.

I'm used to people leaving me alone, Zoey left I don't know why? She thinks leaving a note is ever going to make up for this she is so wrong. I wont nothing to do with her anymore, she left me like I didn't matter at all to her. 

Maybe I should move on from all this, I have my whole life ahead of me, I can't just set around waiting for it to all become good. Now that I know the truth,it's up to me on how I'm going to handle it. This situation has made me really tired of this day I just don't know how I'm going to keep this all to myself. I can't tell my family they'll just think I'm crazy. I have always loved my life in high school but today I wish I was out of this town and in to college. I never did see how people keep secrets from their loved ones.