I never belonged to a group or a clique
I never belonged to a team or a cast
I was an outlier
An outcast
Never have I ever learned to say no because I wanted to fit in
Cause all I wanted in life is to to be one of them
A popular
The girl every guy wanted
The girl when she walked down the street they say "wow I wish I had her"
That was my fantasy
In reality
My life was pretty good
Other than the fact that
I wasn't popular
Or the girl that every guy wanted
I was the girl who walked down the street and guys looked at her and said "pretty face sure, but... she could loose a few."
All that played through my mind you go it just 1 more mile
Again and again
Until I looked at the scale and it said I had lost one pound
I looked at it with so much disgrace
All I thought about is that I worked so hard for one pound one fricken pound.
So that night all I wanted to do is give up
Cause no one will ever love a fat girl
One more bowl or cereal after another until she had got up to 200 pounds and the doctors told her that her knees couldn't take the pressure anymore and that she had to lose a few.
All that played through her mind at the age of 10 when her father told her that she wasn't beautiful and she was worthless. The age of 13 when she was told by her doctors to lose a few. By the time she had gotten to the age of 15 all she could stress about the fact that no guy would ever love her because of the way she looked. Sure that seemed to be true but her friends told her day after lousy day "your beautiful" "your so happy" "your so cute" "why wouldn't a guy love you" . Little did they know she actually hated herself with all of her guts. She could barely get out of bed in the morning because she didn't want to face the ugly face of society and the one person she wanted but knew she couldn't have. Little did they know when she goes to bed at night she wouldn't care if she didn't wake up. All because someone told her she needed to lose a few and you could be beautiful.
