Comatose [Cow Chop]

Chapter One

I hate feelin' like this
I'm so tired of tryin' to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missin'
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losin' you

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As I stared out my bedroom window, a part of me ached to see him again. To feel his arms around me, holding me close. It has been two years since I left, a lot has changed since then. Every day I regret that selfish decision. I regret leaving him with a broken heart just because of one petty little difference I had with one person. A difference that weighed on us all. Instead of walking away, as they eventually did, I ran... I ran far away. Away from the love of my life, and all of my friends.

Just then my attention was torn from my thoughts by the sound of my phone going off in my pocket. I pulled it out and looked down at my screen to see a number that I recognized quite well. Surprised, I hit answer before pressing it to my ear.

"Hello?" I piped out softly.

"Never thought I'd hear your voice again." The caller said chuckling.

"Seamus." I breathed out, " How did you..."

"You really think I'm not smart enough to track down your number?" He asked rather sarcastically.

Sometimes Seamus can be extremely forgetful, but he's very resourceful.

"Well if anyone were to do it, you're definitely the one to achieve it." I stated as I walked over to sit on my bed, "How are you?"

"Feeling a bit better, but not completely 100 percent." He said, "How about you?"

I let out a sigh not really wanting to answer his question, "I'd rather not talk about my feelings and shit." I told him

"Obviously, the way you left him, it was apparent that you didn't want to talk about your feeling," Seamus stated, "Nor did you care to talk about anyone else's feelings."

"Seamus please.." I told him, trying to choke back the feeling of crying. "I already live with that guilt every day."

"He misses you Breez"

I sucked in a deep breath. That simple phrase hit so hard.

"Yeah that hurt to hear didn't it?" He stated.

"Well, of course, it did Sea!" I yelled, "Not a single day goes by that I don't think about him. About how I hurt him, or how heart broken he probably is. We were the world to each other and I just completely destroyed it."

There was silence for a bit. I though that Seamus has possibly hung up on me. I went to ask if he was still there when he spoke, "Well... I wasn't expecting an outburst like that," He stated.

"Well, what exactly were you expecting Seamus?" I snapped, "Why the fuck did you call me? I swear if you only did so to try and make me feel like shit, well I'm sorry to say but I was already feeling that way."

"Actually, my original reason for calling was to see if you were okay." He stated, "I honestly didn't think you'd answer."

I left out a long sigh, breaking down. "You're my best friend Sea." I stated, "And I do feel bad walking out on you too."

There was a pause of awkward silence. Right as I was about to speak Seasmus broke the silence.

"I miss you Breez." He whispered.

"Miss you too Seashell." I giggled at my silly little Nickname for him. I really did miss him. "How are things there for real though?" I asked getting serious.