I'm not great at anything so I'm not going to try
I'm not going to edit this a million times so my future self can see this and smile at my intellect
I'm not going give myself false hope that I can be good at something
Because I'm not
I want for you to remember
-people are assholes they are mean and they make your heart hurt and feel good at the same time. cry because this is sad but don't blink the tears. Let them fall out of your eyes and give your heart that elevator drop feel when gravity pulls the empty to the oak wood and tell yourself that you are crying for the trees and the animals that lived in them and no body else
- your friends are assholes no matter how much you love them and connect with them. They hate you no matter how much they love you or connect with you. They are mean and make your heart feel good but hurt but then feel good again. Thats bad because you have forgotten why you were ever hurt and then you blame yoursef. Blame it on the fact that carpet is a thing and how it's the only thing that has particles from when I was happy and could feel the sun shining from my heart and how now I get sweaty from the outside and my bangs get wet. This makes my brain want to explode. I think the sun might be dying and turning black and taking every last feeling from my mind and skin
-dogs are the only thing and i don't want to see another one ever again so please hide them when I come near
-don't give people power and always be by yourself, people are draining and eventually make you sad because there are assholes and make your heart hurt and feel good at the same time
- you are never going to find someone to love you so deal with it. Let your stomach hurt and scratch your leg and let it sink in. You are an aquired taste and are very hard to like
- sooner or later you have to stop being annoying so you are not miserable your entire life
- you are ugly
- you are unique and an amazing human to be around you are interesting and have a weird out look to life
(january something)
