The Girl Who Needs to be Loved

Chapter one/ School...

I woke up to an ear-piercing sound, the sound that I've come to hate. The alarm that reminds me to get ready to go back to a dump for the week. School. 

The first thing I think of is why? It's not that I don't love learning new things, I really do. But it's all the homework, tests and mostly, the people you have to deal with. No one really likes the homework or tests, and most people like the socializing part, unlike me. I guess you could say that I'm a complete introvert. I don't really want to talk to anyone; I'm practically that one smart kid that never talks. At least that's what I feel like. 

I'm pretty lonely at school. I'm a freshman in high school and I go to a private school. We have to wear a uniform, and the teachers expect us to be really smart yada yada. But private schools are expensive, and your family has to have a good amount of money to send their child there. So all the students there are practically rich snobs. The girls always have their makeup done, and hair perfect, while the boys are always super athletic, have a huge amount of confidence and have the "perfect-angel-face". 

But then there's me. I wake up 45 minutes before school starts, where it seems as if others girls wake up 3 hours before. I get dressed, brush my hair, don't wear any make-up and call it good. I treasure my sleep, so I just skip all the effort of trying to look nice. But every day I feel so left out, I guess it's sort of my fault, though. I never get the courage to actually talk a normal conversation with people at the school. But I don't mind it much, I'm not the one to try and get to know people unless they come to me first. And that's the weird thing. I get upset of people not coming to me and invite me to their table during lunch or even say a simple hello. 

I always think to myself, 'Why do these people not want to talk to me?' 'It's because you never talk to them, idiot self! Go and try! Say hello before it's too late! Get to know them!'  Ok, I got this, I think to myself. I walk up every time and try to speak, but nothing ever comes out. It's almost like I get jerked on a rollercoaster, and I just couldn't breathe, move, or speak. I usually just walk away and think, Good job self you failed once again. 

I finally get out of bed after a full five minutes of dreading the thought of going to that awful place. I count to myself preparing myself to get out of the place where I find comfort, my bed. 

3, 2, 1. 

I crawl out and fall stomach first on the floor, then I weakly army crawl to my closet and slowly get up. Usually how all my weekday mornings start. I change, brush my teeth, brush out my hair. I don't eat breakfast because when I do, I feel sick. I don't know why. I guess it's just another weird thing about me. 

When I get ready, I usually hear my two younger brothers, Josiah, who's 13, and Nathan, whose 11, fighting over something dumb. This morning Nathan claims that his toothpaste is way better than Josiah's. A little dumb right? They get on my nerves sometimes, but I still love them. I usually also hear my youngest brother Jonathan fussing, today it's about having scissors taken away from him. He's just two years old. But then I hear another child crying; my baby sister. She's a year old, and probably crying because my dad is too busy trying to get Jonathan away from the scissors and she's not getting any attention from anyone in the house. And somehow my mom is sleeping through all this. 

We all get ready and leave for school. We get there and I slowly get out of the car regretting every step I take towards the school. I let out a big sigh. Another day where I feel like I'm alone.    

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Hey Guys! So this is my first book ever...And the first chapter. I really need advice on writing stories, and if you guys have any suggestions please comment below! Also, if you guys could vote, follow, and keep on reading this that would be great. When I have maybe 2 or 3 reads, I'll update the next chapter. I'm really new to this stuff...Like i said. First book! Please tell me what I can work on! Thanks!! <3<3