this is legit what im feeling right now.. smh i feel like im gonna break down and cry in 0.00037 seconds.
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staring at the papers and binders sprawled in front of you you felt your chest tightening and your head pounding.
clearly studying last minute for your history test wasn't a good idea; especially when you understood absolutely nothing.
considering your teacher wasn't the best one out there you barely paid any attention in class, comforted by the fact that you had all of your notes written specifically for this test. you didn't think it was that big of a deal.. but you perspective quickly changed as you were now currently sitting on your bed at 22:13 pm staring at the pages filled with words over words of absolute nonsense.
no matter how much you tried motivating yourself, all you did now was stare at the sentences, not understanding a word of what they say and feel your heart clench at the fact the you knew for sure that tomorrow you will be failing the test, big time.
taking a deep breath you wrote down the subtitle on your page, attempting to summarize one of the subjects your teacher sent you, only to stop in frustration as you knew you had no hope in attempting to even succeed in studying.
deciding to go grab a drink of water you made your way to the kitchen, the thought of the definite fail you will be receiving tomorrow was weighing in on your mind causing a lump in your throat which you attempted to swallow down.
walking the hallway to the kitchen you saw ethan sprawled on the couch, browsing his phone.
"how's the studying going." he asked as he heard you footsteps.
"fine i guess." you answered, your eyes glossing over as you felt that frustration bubbling up again inside of you.
opening the fridge you took out a water bottle, chugging it down you felt the urge to just cry. to just let the tears break free and stream across your cheeks, to let out that frustration inside you chest.
screwing the bottle cap you returned the bottle to the fridge before making you way unwillingly back to your bedroom. sitting back down on your bed you crossed your legs as you looked at the pages in front of you. sentences on sentences, words on words that made absolutely no sense.
feeling your throat tighten you couldn't hold back the tears no matter how much you wanted to, your vision blurred as you felt your eyes gloss over and faint tears stream down your eyes, your nose slightly running as a quiet sop escaped your lips. the thought of failing the test tomorrow morning only making the tears stream faster down your cheeks as you held you head in your hands.
your lips were quivering and your tears were now flowing freely down you cheeks, but the lump in your throats and the ache in your chest were still prominent.
"hey babe do you- hey, hey, what's wrong?" you heard ethans worried tone as he quickly made his way to your shared bed, wrapping his arms around you as he pulled you to his chest.
"i-i just don't understand this.., a-any of it. not o-one thing." you choked out into his chest.
"i don't know any of this, im gonna f-fail it tomorrow." you sobbed as you felt that agony build up in your chest.
"babe please don't cry, and please don't stress over this okay?" he said trying to soothe you as he ran his fingers gently across your back.
"i promise you everything will be fine, even if you do fail tomorrow everything will alright okay? no please stop crying babe i hate seeing you like this."
you let out a shaky breath as you still felt the tears welt up in your eyes.
Ethan kept you close to him, pressed against his chest as his warm arms and hands wrapped around you in a comforting manner he didn't let you go until he felt your chest rise in fall in a steady pace.
"are you okay princess?" he asked backing away a bit to look down at you tear stained face.
"y-yeah." you managed to breath out.
he caressed his rough fingers along your cheeks in attempt to wipe away your tears only for you to chuckle slightly and turn your head away.
"i probably look terrible." you chuckled. causing a frown to show on his plump lips.
"don't dare say that, i think you look beautiful when you cry. even though I prefer to see you happy.." he said as you looked into his hazel green eyes.
a small smile crept upon your lips as you felt nothing but adoration towards the man sitting in front of you.
"thank you." you whispered as you wrapped your arms around his neck and hiding your face against his neck, breathing in his calming musky scent that at time would drive you mad.
you felt him press a soft kiss against your shoulder, "anything for my princess." he whispered, making your stomach to flutter and feel all warm and fuzzy.
at that moment you felt grateful, grateful to have ethan, and not wanting to imagine what your life would look like without him.
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this was trash..
i legit broke into tears three f.ücking times in the last hour over this d.ümbass history test which i am going to completely fail.
