WHAT IF?

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The more I flipped the pages and read the more pissed off I became. No longer able to read another fucking word I slam Goddess's journal on our bedroom dresser as the sound of keys and a closing door reach my ears. Clinching the spine of the book in a death grip grabbing it off the dresser I stalk my way into the kitchen where I find Goddess placing bags of food on the island table. Her back  facing me.

"Bae! I'm back, come here!" She called out for me having yet to notice my presence within the room.

"Goddess." I spoke the sound if my voice startling her as she jumps turning around to face me.

"Jesus you scared me JungTae." I said nothing as I waited, it didn't take her long to notice the black expression upon my face.

"Who stuck something up yo behind? What's wrong Tae?" She ask trying to be playful but playing I was far from.

"What the fuck is this huh?" Disregarding her question I heave the journal at her feet as she jump in the slightest from being caught off guard.

"My dream journal Tae. Why are you throwing it. What about it." She looks at me confused. Was she playing dumb on purposely? I point to the book telling her to pick it up.

"Now open it to the most recent page you wrote and read."  I watch as she flip through the pages. Settling on the correct page it finally clicks to her as she close the book slowly. "So is there anything between you and Taehyung I should know about Goddess.

When did you ever get the chance to have sex with him huh??" I said calmly but on the inside my blood was boiling.

"Jungtae let me explain it before you jump to conclusions." She say.

"Yeah please Goddess explain why my fucking girlfriend is writing about fucking her 'best friend'? That shit is way to detailed to not have happen so when did you screw him Goddess?!" I said raising my voice at her.

"I never had sex with Taehyung, Jungtae." She shouted back at me.  Picking up the journal from her feet I stepping into personal space.

"So you're just dreaming about fucking him is that right? So what about it that make you think of him and not me?"

HER POV: "It was just a dream and you know I write all my dreams down. Tae I would never hurt you why would you think that??" I can tell Jungtae was pissed as I take in his demeanor with him so close. His warm breath kissing my face.

"You're not answering my question" He says stepping deeper into my personal bubble. He was really beginning to annoy me, it was just a dream it didn't really happen. Why was he asking me something he knows already, I mean obviously he read part of it if not all. He wanted to know the difference, ok then.

"You're boring Tae that's the difference. I'm tired of doing the same thing over and over. You don't really excite me as much anymore. I mean you're good and I like it but idk you're...too soft." Jungtae stare at me in disbelief as if he couldn't fathom the words that left my mouth. I was pretty sure his pride was wounded. And as the silence continued on between us as I wait for his response I was beginning to regret my choice of words. Unexpectedly Tae chuckle to himself glancing at the ceiling before turn his attention back to me while sucking his teeth in the way he always does when he was completely fed up with everything.