100 Different Ways ~ On Hold

Chapter 1- Forceful Sisters

Chapter 1

Forceful Sisters

Edward Cullen

"I'm not going Alice! Now leave me alone!" I slammed the door in my sister's shocked face, throwing everything around me on the floor before sitting and putting my face in my hands.

The pain today was suffocating, as expected.

Please Edward?

"No Alice! I'm not going to school! I never go this day, you all know that!"

Just this once Edward? I have a good feeling about today, but everything's blurry cause you haven't decided yet

"I've decided, I'm not going!"

Couldn't she see I didn't want to go? I wouldn't make it through first period today.

Everything hurt, especially my heart. Like a knife going through it, continually and constantly.

I heard Alice groan, then stomp away, but I should've known she wouldn't have given up so quickly.

She called Emmett and Jasper in to hold me against my will while she picked an outfit for school.

"Get dressed and don't think of escaping." She said before glaring daggers at me and then leaving.

Em and Jazz left also, but I knew they were waiting for me to try to escape.

I got dressed, knowing I didn't have a choice and looked out the window.

No sign of Emmett or Jasper.

Hmm.

I didn't make a decision to escape, to get me a five second head start.

Then, I jumped.

I also should've known not to underestimate Alice.

As soon as I landed I was tackled and thrown into my Volvo by none other than my dear brothers. A smirking Alice was driving, and Rose- also smirking- was riding shotgun.

"Ready for school Eddie?" Alice asked before speeding off, not waiting for an answer.

"Alice please," I begged. "You know I can"t, It would hurt too much. I just can't do it Alice."

Alice stopped the car at a nearby diner. "Edward don't you think it hurts us too? We all got seperated from Bella. We're all hurting, but you have to be strong."

"Alice I can't!" I yelled in despair. I put my face in my hands, pulling at my hair. Why would I ever leave her? Leave the love of my life? My mate? My only love?

But Alice was right, the whole family had lost her, not just myself. Alice lost her best friend. Emmett lost his little sister. Esme and Carlisle lost their daughter. Even Rosalie missed her. She hated herself for not being kinder to her. But Jasper felt the strongest about the situation. He felt it was his fault that we had to leave her, because he caused the fiasco at her 18th birthday party. It was my fault though. I made the decision, I forced us to leave. I didn't even let my family say goodbye to her. I was truly a soulless monster.

"Dude, I know your upset, but you have to stay strong. For Bel-" Emmett stopped as I shot him a glare. If looks could kill he'd be six feet under. "For her," he finished.

I nodded. "I'll try," I said sighing.

Alice shot me a small smile as she drove to us to school.

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Thoughts and memories of her swam in my mind constantly, driving me to hate myself even more, drowning me in an endless sea. I could barerly listen to the teacher as I died very minute more inside if that was even possible.

Everything reminded me of her, and I couldn't bear it. Every time I thought of biology, or my meadow or even my piano. I haven't played my piano in over a century. Ever since I lost her.

I couldn't even stand 6 months without her, so I returned, ready to beg for days until she let me back into her life. Charlie slammed the door in my face, before saying that if I wanted to see her to visit the Forks Cemetery.

As every fiber of my being knew she had to be alive I went anyways. There was her grave. Sitting idly in the middle of the grave yard. It felt my heart broke into a million pieces and it was undefinable. I died that day, once and for all.

I knew then I wanted to join her, even if we weren't going in the same place. I flew to Italy, seeking the Volturi for assistance since I knew that my brother's wouldn't help me. Alice and Jasper were already there to drag me away, always one step ahead of me. It wasn't the only time I attempted though, and every time they would meet me, talking me out of it, and dragging me away. When it was necessary, Jasper even had to 'persuade' me out of there.

I wish they wouldn't.

Today, was her birthday. She should've been happy, and alive. Not dead and rotting in her grave.

I didn't bother getting lunch as I sat with my brother's and my sisters in the cafeteria. I wasn't going to eat it anyways, and I was too upset to even move.

As the school day continued, I tried to block out the inner monolouge of the students here. Today's gossip was all about the new girl coming in today. I ignored them, not caring enough to listen to all of the lies and romours the vile people here spread.

I hadn't seen her since now, though many people were thinking about her. Once again, I blocked them out.

Instead, I focused on my siblings.

Alice was looking confused.

She kept looking back at the new girl, though we couldn't see her face.

All I could see was the familiar mahogany hair she had that broke my heart once again.

I thought again of her beautiful entrancing brown eyes and saw I wouldn't be able to make it through the next period.

"Jazz?"

"No problem bro," he responded, knowing what I was getting at.

I felt calmer as Jasper used his gift on me.

The bell rung, and I head to biolo- my next class.

I sat down at my empty desk. No one wanted to be lab partners with me, not that I blamed them.

The new girl came in a minute before Mr. Smith did, and she walked up and handed him a paper which he signed.

"You'll be seated next to Mr.Cullen," he said.

Her eyes, covered by sunglasses looked to me, and though I couldn't see her eyes I thought I saw surprise, then sadness on her eyes. Then anger.

Why was she already mad at me? Maybe she didn't want to sit next to the freak of Spokane high school.

She groaned, then Sat down. Her skin was almost as pale as mine, and she was extremely beautiful.

Her plump red lips, and her perfect cheek bones were all of one beautiful feature she had.

"Oh, and Ms. Swan? Please take off your sunglasses." Mr. Smith told her.

My head pounded.

She took them off and accidentally let them drop. I went to pick them down and saw her reaching to pick them up too. She stared back at me and I found myself looking into those familiar brown eyes.

"Bella?"