Daily dose of me

October 25,2016

I think this should be like a small introduction about myself but I don't want people to finding out who I am. All I can say is I'm 19 and feel misused and abused.
Why I feel misused  is because I think my fiancé is cheating on me. He likes to blame it on games and such. Like for an example 'Pokémon Go', he will be out for hours playing it when I know exactly what Pokémon he catches because I have his account on my phone. He tends to want to be at his work or around town more then being around me. But the thing is we have been engaged for 4 months but dating for 4 years. I love him with all my heart but I just don't think he feels the same way. I mean yes we have are up and downs but we are always working it out. Yes I blame myself for having a miscarriage and not telling him sooner (by a couple days) but I needed to be by myself and cope with it. I think after that everything changed.
And now he is saying his manager wants to 'see him' when I know exactly what's going on and his manager would have just called him. I really wish he would stop doing this to me. And what doesn't help is I might be pregnant. And I know for a fact he doesn't want the kid. It breaks my heart.