That one word pretty much sums up how I feel. There's no emotion in anything I do anymore.
Your birthday is supposed to be a special day, right? You're supposed to feel celebrated, as you have made it this far.
But that wasn't the case. And hasn't been.
You walk into school and see your friends had decorated your locker, yet you feel nothing. You get countless "Happy Birthday"s from people you might not even know, but you don't feel anything. You plaster the smile in your face and put on a show for everyone.
Talking to parents. Probably the hardest thing ever. I tried telling my mom once that I just felt sad, that I was empty. But she didn't say or do anything besides sit on the floor of my room, staring at me.
"Do you want to see a therapist?"
No mom.
Just
no.
