Hidden Agony (Vampire Knight: Zero x Reader)

Prologue

When I was turned I knew—and I don't know how I knew— that if I didn't find the Pureblood turned me, I would fall into Level E. So I did everything I could and searched everywhere. Questions had been buzzing in my mind, why me? Why had I been turned? Shouldn't I be grateful? After all I could have died that night.

Eventually I did find him, he gave me his blood for a price.  A price which has burdened me to this day.

The price was that I had to protect his daughter, Yuuki Kuran from getting harmed by any other vampires. He didn't tell me that I would then be bounded by a "Master and Servant" bond and although I should have been angry, I wasn't. I didn't want to become a Level E and to be saved that was the price I would be willing to pay.  There was an understanding between Haruka and I, he wanted to protect his daughter, his family and I wanted to be able to control my own actions.

I stayed with Haruka and his family for a short period of time which was long enough to know the danger Yuuki was really in. Yuuki had been hidden from the outside world and after taking care of Yuuki, I began to care about her as if she were my own little sister. Juuri also became important to me for she reminded me of my own mother. Haruka's son–Kaname–however hadn't really become close to me but I still respected him and treated him kindly.

The reality of things finally kicked in when I had begun to notice how close I was to them. I missed my own family, my real family.  And so I asked Haruka if he would allow me to visit my own family.  Without so much as a protest he let me go. It was my opportunity to never return but somehow he trusted me. Was it really trust? Or was it the confidence he had in the "Master Servant" bond? Whatever it was I knew, my master was a kind man...

The difference between my family and I was ever more prominent that night than any other night and obvious that I couldn't even relate myself with them. They were almost like strangers to me. One thing that I had forgotten in the midst of missing them was that they wouldn't welcome me with open arms. My mother wouldn't kiss my forehead and sing my name in a lovely tune, my father wouldn't ruffle my hair in a loving manner.  My five year old sister wouldn't be allowed to run into my arms and I wouldn't be allowed to hug her close.

The reason?

My parents were Vampire Hunters.

I should have known and remembered the moment I turned, and perhaps I would have been able to save myself from heart break and the betrayal I felt when their astonished stares hardened into glares. Glares that would be given to an enemy, who was the enemy they hated so much?

Vampires...and I was that Vampire.

When I returned to Haruka I felt empty and broken, I didn't say a word as I stood in front of him. I felt that I could cry until I my body had no more liquid left in it but tears would not come.

It was then when he lowered to his knees I felt arms warp around my smaller frame that I felt feeling again. I had to accept the fact that I was a vampire, one that was turned by a Pureblood.

My master was a gentle man.
My masters wife was a caring woman.
My masters daughter needed to be protected and I promised Haruka. Promised that I would protect her with my life but I needed time to myself and once again he allowed me to leave.

I thanked him I said that I would return once needed, I gave him my word and would return the second he needed me. When she needed me.