it's all faint
can only remember the sirens blaring as i faded from reality.
i regained consciousness four hours later.
they told me you were already gone.
taken a handgun and a pack of marlboros
to the head.
it's funny cause the same gun
we'd fire above our heads at the beach
and I'd put it between my teeth
you would rig the trigger and then laugh
it wasn't stupid games at the moment
you really had killed yourself.
i wish i died too
because nothing has ever been the same.
