Antecipation

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Walking trough a hallway full of people

Eyes fixed on every inch of my body

I hear them whisper, i see them look

I wish i could hear what they say

I wish i could avoid the echoes of their laughs

I wonder what theyre saying

Maybe something like how my hair looks greasy today

Or why are my eyes so weird

I tell them, in big loud words " Fuck you "

Or at least, i wish i did, but i dont, but i seriously want to

But instead, i swallow it, choking on those words

Normally, the act of digesting such a strong, powerfull word is the reason behind my lack of sleep

I hate it, i hate doing this, but im just too much of a coward

Come on! Stop fucking laughing! Can you tell me what's up with that?!

Help me! Tell me what's wrong! Im lost in a maze of mixed standards and opinions

Im lost...Im lost in what looks good and what it looks bad

I want to be diferent, but here i am

Acknowledging every single comment, every single look, every single laugh

I dont want to become the same as you all, i fucking hate you all, but i feel like i am

But im lonely, and dont know what to do

Im confused, and i dont know where to go

I start to feel myself losing it, i start walking weird

In the middle of all this confusion, i drop 10 cents

I sweat, i want to cry, i want to drop on my knees and scream

But someone approaches

Naive, dumb and stupid, i believe they would help me picking up the coin

But instead, they take it to themselves

I dont react, i just keep walking, i want to get out of this hallway, now

Im scared of confrontation, im short and weak, i dont fit the profile of a threat

I just keep walking

Because in this hallway, i feel like i am the biggest coward.

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