she stood still and pondered her reflection
again she saw what wasn't there
she knew the weaknesses she had
for they were not actually her's
she often felt crazy or unreal
like a mere ghost of a dead girl
she had dreams about her happiness
happiness was not present
she awoken and knew it wasn't real
she screamed at the sky
"why do I feel this way
when can I be happy again
nothing felt real
when can this be over"
