Broken

Goodbye

Jessica's POV

My best friends and I were sitting at the table as we watched people having fun on the dance floor, swaying their hips from left to right with their own partners and friends. It was one of our friend's birthday party and she invited us to celebrate it with her. Turns out there were a lot of guest than we thought but that didn't shock me. What shocks me is one of the guest who I least expected to be at this party. I tilt my head slightly to the left to make sure that it is who I'm seeing. It wasn't wrong, it was him. The person I loved dearly. The person whom I'm having a hard time moving on from, and a person who I consider very dearly, special, to me.

Choi Sooyoung.

He was an ex. Heck, he was more than just an ex as he held a piece of my heart. As cheesy as it seems, it's true. It's hard to explain, but he's just someone so special to me. I don't even know why. Love is a mystery.

I was busy staring at Sooyoung that I didn't realize my best friend, Tiffany, was eyeing the whole situation. Tiffany slightly nudged my shoulder and it caught my attention as I faced her and raised my brows. Only to be greeted with a long sigh.

"Hm?" I asked

"I know you saw him, Jessi"

Tiffany gave me a worried look and patted my hand which was on the table. I replied back with a sad smile.

"I'm fine" I told her

"I know you're not"

I sighed. I turned around to where Sooyoung is and there I saw him, happily chatting with the others, laughing around and didn't notice my existence. I could only smile by looking at him. I miss him, I truly do. Just then, I felt Tiffany held my hand as she gave me an apologetic look once again. I squeezed her hand in return. I know she's just worried about me, and I'm lucky to have her by my side. It's just that, it has been so long since I last met Sooyoung and to have the chance to see him once again, is just too.....unexpected.

"Jessi" Tiffany called

"Hm?"

"Do you want to go somewhere else?"

"No Tiff, I'm fine"

"It hurts me to see you like this.."

"Don't worry Tiff, I'm okay" I smiled

"You should stop acting like you're tough, you know. It's time for you to show it to him.. Your true feelings"

Tiffany's right. I have every rights to be mad at him for leaving me without us having a proper closer to our relationship. But it wasn't his fault. I can't blame him for not feeling the same way as I did for him. Yes, when we were together, after the break up, I found out that Sooyoung never really have loved me the way I loved him. But he probably accepted me just because of pity as he knows that I had a crush on him. But the thing is, I didn't even force him to be with me and we were together as a couple in just one snap. He accepted me during my birthday which makes the day even more special and he made me the happiest girl on that particular day. During high school years, Sooyoung was an honor student. He aced his academics and sports well and knew how to balance his studies. Imagine how proud I was to have him? Heck, I boasted about him to my friends. He's the definition of a 'perfect boyfriend'.