With All Our Doubts (Jamal Lyon Love Story)

Chapter 1: The Point of No Return (Part I)

Confusion. Why does everyone turn out to be so confused when you expect something to go the way you thought it would turn out, but turned out to be something that was a disaster? Think about it. Because that's how my life is. Dealing with a bunch of twist-turned events.

Right now, I'm a changed person at Empire. Why? Because for one, I have a new style and two, I come with a new attitude that I had somehow managed to inherit from the Lyons and I'm not the same girl who first walked into Empire.

Well, let's start from where we left off. Remember when I went on my date with my old middle school crush that I met at a coffee shop? Yes. Had style, had some looks, especially the fame of being a all-time boxer.

Yeah, out of all people, he asked me to be his girlfriend.

Shocking, right?

Now, this is where it gets real.

You all know my childhood best friend/ex-lover Jamal Lyon, right?

Obviously.

Well, turns out he wants me back after he cheated on me with D-Major....

Also a bummer, right?

I know you want to know who I picked, but to answer your question......

I didn't choose neither of them.

Why?

Well, I had a lot going on and have no time to think on it clearly. A couple of my songs hit sky-high, making me the most famous female artist at Empire right now. Plus, I'm trying to help Cookie, who pleaded me into it, to help her with getting Jamal back on the charts, and I really wasn't fond of the idea of seeing him right now. Lucious, on the other hand, secretly wanted me to help him get Cookie back after their last encounter since he somewhat knew of me and Cookie's close "relationship". I really didn't want to help him after he broke Cookie's heart like that, and I was reluctant to help him.

Hakeem....well, I'm helping him stay strong from him and Laura's break-off at the wedding, and I did my best to support him as a friend and a sister.

Then, there's Jamal....

What to say about him? He basically told me he wanted us back together, but the question was:

Why now? What made him want me back after all the hell he caused me? It's like one minute I think that I wanted to hate him and the next minute.....it's really complicated right now.

He really caught me off-guard when I was on my date with Mike. Recently, Mike and I have gotten closer since that wonderful date months ago and it's like we're together officially, but we aren't. He usually sends me all kinds of flowers and chocolates to Empire everyday unexpected, which was surprising. I truly melted at all the things Mike did for me to convince myself to be with him.

Jamal, recently tried to talk to me finally after our silent treatment for weeks when he saw me at Empire. But when he saw those gifts that Mike sent me, he had this jealous and angry look on his face and he rudely went away from me after he heard rumors go around that I've been seeing someone. I felt so much guilt that I felt that I was cheating on him and ditching him often, but it wasn't my fault. Someone else liked me also, and Jamal needs to realize that things aren't always what they seem to be like we want them.

Choosing one of them will almost be like choosing a side between Cookie and Lucious honestly. So how could you react when you seriously are dealing with a love triangle?

I could still remember what I said back at that restaurant.....
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