I was awoken by a flash of lightning and the booming of thunder, the rain was coming down in sheets. I lay awake in my bed, knowing I wont be able to go back to sleep. I decide to go for a walk, to clear my mind. I get up out of bed, throw on some old tattered jeans and a thick black coat and walk out the front door. As i walk along the sidewalk I hear a bunch of drunken teens yelling and screaming at me, calling me names, flipping me off, but I dont let it get to me, ive already been hurt to the point where ones words against me mean nothing. About five minutes into my walk I decide to turn back, and hopefully try to get some sleep. The only place im truly happy anymore is in my dreams, I can do whatever i want in my dreams, I can be whoever I want, I just want to fall asleep and never wake up, life is a living hell. The next morning I awake to the sound of an ambulance whizzing by, I struggle to sit up in bed, but when i finnaly do I get out of bed, walk into the bathroom and take a shower. Thoughts race through my head, Images of nooses, little voices whisper to me, do it, kill yourself, DO IT, then all of the voices start chanting in unison, DO IT DO IT DO IT, I scream, start hitting my head on the tiled walls of the bathroom, and curl up in a ball on the ground and cry until my eyes hurt. I see the noose, hanging in the hallway, sunlight beaming down upon it, I walk over to it, put my head through it, and whisper to myself, I wanna sleep forever, i kick the stool below me and i drop, the lights begin to fade away...soon i will be forever trapped in an endless dream, where all is possible, and the words no, impossibe, and you cant will be gone. Why did this life have to suck so much? Why did it have to be my life? All these questions go unanswered, and i slip into a sleep i will never awaken from, death, eternal darkness forever.
