Grief

Chapter 1

Loneliness. To me, the word loneliness is the worst word in the dictionary. It means that there is no one there by your side that will love you when you need to be loved, help you when you need to be helped and care for you when you need to be cared for. The word loneliness is used by people that don't really understand the full meaning of the word and to be honest i didn't either until...it all began...

I remember sitting at the dinner table 2 nights before it happened, or was it 3...i don't really remember but anyway, we were sitting at the dinner table eating the food my mother had cooked for us. I think it was pot roast we were eating. I dont remember it that well because i was thinking about him, Holden I think his name was, i remember thinking he was the love of my life and that one day he would be my "knight in shining armor" and i would be the "Dansel in Distress". "Rowen....Rowen.....ROWEN!" I finally snapped out of my daydream and saw my mom sitting in next to me waving her hand in my face. "Im here, Im here", i said in a annoyed voice. "Pay attention, i need to talk to you". "Ok mom, i listening". "I have to work a double shift at the restaurant so i need you to go straight home right after school". "Ok fine whatever". To be honest, i never really liked my mom. I always thought she was overprotected and unfair. She was the kind of mother who cared about her kid too much but i never really understood that. What im trying to say is, you dont know you love someone you hate until they are gone forever.