//Not Normal\\

All of Me

Do you ever feel like you give someone everything? Sometimes you think, I spoil them too much. Then you'll think, 'I can't really say spoil, more like I'm giving', and blow it off as you just being nice. Like you give someone your secrets, your friendship... your love. You give them all of the things about yourself.

Your insecurities.

Your dignity.

Your confidence.

You let all those things lean against them and act like they're only there because of that person. You tell yourself, 'I can't do any better, they are perfect... why would I even try? It's useless.' And when they start taking their own path, they don't include you.

Like you were just there. Like you didn't mean anything to them.

But they always meant the world to you. They were the center of the universe. Of your universe, You can't think of anyone to replace their position in your life.

Sometimes, they constantly push you away, but they push others away from you in the process. Like they own everyone and for some reason they like getting everyone against you. But you've always had trust and promise for this person, so you think, 'It's just my imagination. I mean what am I even talk about? Everyone still likes me that liked me before?'

But there's legitimately a problem.

This person makes you feel so nervous. Like if you say or do the wrong thing, you'll screw something up. They'll never talk to you again. They'll hate you. If you answer a question of thiers wrong, you feel caught in a net. You feel trapped in a hole... without them.

They constantly hate on you. They constantly tell you you're worth nothing. But you don't care. You don't care because you've always liked them. They've always been decent. Right? When you talk to them they talk back. They tell you everything is okay, but don't realize they're the reason why everything is not.

They're the reason you cry yourself to sleep. The reason why your confidence, dignity, and insecurities are so low, so you lean them against the problem to try and make it feel better. You tell yourself they get me. They understand where I'm coming from. But when you get upset and try to talk to them about it, they tell you your a cry baby. People have it worse, right? They say,

"You're just being selfish. Your problems aren't nothing compared to mine or even everyone elses. Your problems are so small, why do you bother?"

They don't understand that problems that seem small to them... are huge to you.

But throughout all of their 'advice' and hate, you still lean everything on them. You still trust them. But you know you shouldn't. You still think they're the same person as they were when you first started talking. But they aren't.

Well, I'm here to tell you...

1) You're not alone. There's a reason there is a writer and a reader. They have similar problems. They aren't just making it up for people to like them. Or make money. At least I'm not. Then you look at how many other people have read the same thing you are. They understand too. They might not be in the exact same situation as you are, but they have it similar.

The other people reading this know that there are others too. They know you're out there. They might not know you personally but as another reader they know about your presence.

2) Let's talk about this person. Mother, father, sister, brother, boyfriend, girlfriend, ... best friend. All of these people and a lot more, are the problem to everything to you. Or maybe only one of them and the rest are generally kind. Or maybe a couple, or however that must go. You realize that they are the cause to all your stress.

The first step is to recognize who they are. Figure out who makes you feel awful, figure out who you lean yourself onto more than you should.

I want you to do one simple thing to that person.

Drop them. Don't let them get to you. Don't let them talk to you or about you. Don't let them tell you what to do with your life. Don't let them drag you down when you could be so much more than... them. You can shoot for the stars. You can be ambitious. You can be anything and do anything you want to, but not with this person in your life.

So drop them.

You'll lean everything on yourself. You know your beautiful. People tell you all the time. I'm telling you right now, so why have insecurities. Why have low confidence, when you can literally boss at everything you try? I mean look at you! You can paint so well! Your voice is beautiful! You are the best basketball player I've ever met!

And heck you must be good at reading because you got this far.

So why get this far and not realize the rotten tomato in your life?