"Sup with them sad eyes Mama?
Pick that chin up Right now before I stab your heart with my Looks and Call George Lopez to witness.... haha...Look
I dug my own hole..
You're not suppose to come along with me babygirl.
So....
This letter is to let you know.....
MOVE ON.
Move on from this because It's not to anger you, or Bring tears my Love. Nah...
In these times:
I have come to Believe in my lifestyle.
Fiftye One....
Dont make me finish.
Just know that a boy behind the letter he writes;
hides behind the bars he is living in by choice.
He wouldn't think to offer you the well being of your own decision.
Wipe those fucken tears Woman, it's only temporary that's why Knowing if you read this;
will not only direct my heart but also Teach a young one how to Be ....
A Man.
These words shouldn't lecture you nah not even...
they should make you feel Honored,
Special! Netta...
How many ways you want me to explain why you should treasure your free will and recognize that I aint the man for you.....
Until I can do the same in the unreflective mirror I have to look at, day in and day out. I just see a ....
A Fucken Monster. Smh....
Threw you though:
I know who I SHOULD BE.
But the motha....... fugh;
The Hood gots a larger hold on my Corazon;
that I have to lead by example. There's no other way, that's why it is what it is.
Right now.....
Don't be afraid.
Your More Mex....y-que Donald Trump?
You know, This vato doesn't and he wont understand our way of life.....
But God..... haha.... God mami...
He's got this hold on us that NO ONE CAN CONQUER but our parents in the ways they sacrifice to live what we dont have a full grasp of man....
Generations respectful enough to KNOW...
this war I have become a part of.....
It's bigger than Einstien and his theory;
Its not a fairytale loca.....
Its called ....
Well,
Its called.....
LOVE Aye.
If my Raza doesnt get it yet,
Then fuck it....
Let the word of a higher power speak...
when I'm Dead.
Ill fight for now shit dont get it twisted babygirl.
Just remember; these Bars aren't what you think.
These bars will never be my excuse or my Guilt.
Right now... Yeah,
They keep me from ....
From You.
My Family.
My Kids.
MYSELF DAMMIT!!!
HOW CAN I FIGHT TO SURVIVE WHEN THE RICH MAN IS DOING EVERYTHING IN HIS POWER TO MAKE SURE THAT I DONT DO WHAT IM DOING FOR MY LOVED ONES!!!
Giving them the words to use as ammunition, fuel... Oxygen.
I could only imagine whats going through your mind right now....
My last breath, my last memory and my last piece of mind would always be for you only, thats why Right RIGHT now I know you're thinking...
#Her (Voice)
"I'm suppose to let go?
Of my Priorities? Such as you? All the years you told me that....
Wait a fucken minute vato;
this aint how I seen it in my dreams, this aint how its suppose to be, FUCK NO!!
IM SUPPOSE TO DROP....
Everything and run to the Law with my hands up, while bullets run threw me like a pencil to paper in every space movie that they talk about a Wormhole? Shit, Ill be damned aye.
I'm literally beat by the time I am able to walk on my own 2 feet.
I understand: But...
Awareness to those,
that fucken think its funny?
Let me be the one to answer them."
#Him (Finishing his Thoughts)
Hey Mama,
Do me a favor yeah? Simmer down with those headrushes. Gets me to anxious woman and Im just talking in your perspective haha....
Real shit Loca,
Tell my little brother that I said;
Let me feed his innocent pupils with some REAL, clear eyes holmes.
If his ass doesn't hear it now,
He wont EVER hear it from our Papa...
Were raised in an Orderly fashion... for a reason.
If he cant find respect in his Brothers words then I still...
Am never too late....
Why?
Because God will fill in the Holes that we Shia leboufed and Zero, Zip....
Negative thoughts should run through any of your Minds when I say this shit.
Right now,
Your more Mysterious than the almost bottomless ocean columbus set sail over to discover these Indian/Mexican lands.
Thats why Us as not only Mexican Americans.....
we have a Roll.
Its not meant for us to live in
Pair-a-dice.
We have to set the Role by proving Paradise exists
in love Mamasita.
In Love you'll find Greatness and Enlightenment so... right now....
I aint shinning so bright so....
Before I end this Shit,
Let me tell you one thing....
Go on in life,
not wondering what Ill be doing.
You know better than that.
Live on knowing;
you made the Right choice Loca.
Your The Only One, the one and Only."
Always and forever,
El Gallo Negro.
