The Wait

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I'm 11 years old and wishing hoping to get adopted. I'm getting older now... I'm 14 years old with big hopes and dreams that I'm positive will never happen because I'm waiting, waiting to get out of this place. I see other children leave with new parents everyday and soon I'll be left here by myself. I'm 16 years old the oldest in this place and of course no one will want to take an almost adult as their child so I wait, wait for my 18th birthday. I'm 18 now and finally can make my own choice out of that place I leave but have no where to go. I look for a job but have no hope yet. I do whatever I can to eat, eat at least once a day. That will fill me up for about 2 days more but I'm starving still. I'm 20 years old now with a decent job and a decent apartment I know decent people and have a decent life. I'm 23 now I'm engaged to a very loving gentleman whom I'm sure will be by my side no matter what. I have big dreams with him and hope to accomplish them. I'm 25 and I've finally said I do. I'm nervous and full of excitement and adventure along with anticipation. I'll wait, wait to see how things go. I'm 27 and lost a baby...we are devastated because we waited. We waited so long for a new life to arrive in our lives and it gets pulled away. Pulled away like when your dreams are crushed and you no longer have hope in them only you can create new things but an infant can only live once for it is human like you and me. I'm 31 and had a beautiful bundle of joy arrive to us. Chrysanthemums is the name we gave her for she is that bright colored flower that gave us meaning in our life. I promise her...from this day and on that I will not make her wait, I will not make her wait like I did. I will not make her wait to feel loved because she already is. I will not make her wait for suffering to end because all the ground work is done so she will think her life Is easy. I will not make her wait like I did... Just wait and see...wait and now it's her turn to tell her story but for now we wait.