Untitled Part 1

Party time

I put on my black ripped jeans and the my chemical romance shirt that Tyler always steals. I grab my jean jacket and run out the door. 
"Bye mom!"
Tyler is parked outside singing to cancer by mcr. He has the most beautiful voice I've ever heard. I get in and put my seat belt on.
"Tyler you should really record yourself singing that. Jesus you are an angel."
He laughs and turns the music down.
"Well don't you look nice. You look nice for Josh huh?" He says and I nod.
"Alright I have the boos, lets go."
We drive to the kickback and Brendon comes out to help bring in the boos.
"Dudes it's Friday, so FUCK YEAAAHHHH!"
Brendon always says that on Friday's.
The first thing I do when I walk in is sit over where the blunts are being passed. Tyler too.
"Sam and Tyler! I missed you guys soooo much!" Matty says drunkenly
"Matty we missed you too!"
We give him hugs and sit down. He passes the blunt to me and I take a couple hits. Then I pass it to Ty. Someone touches my hair and sits next to me.
"You look nice Sam. You know, I really like that color hair on you. Did you realize we have the same hair color?" Josh says
Of course I noticed. The first day I came to school and saw him with that hair color, I fangirled for about 20 minutes because of it.
"Yeah, what made you wanna do pink?" I say back
"Well everyone tells me pink looks the best on me so I just did it again. What about you?"
"I don't know I just never did pink before. I'm not sure if I like it on me. I think I like the purple on me better. Also I think blue looks really good on you." I say and we both smile. He winks and grabs the blunt.
We all take about 5 hits from the bong and wait to feel it.
"Sam oh my god did you use the Kat Von D pallet and liner I gave you? It looks so good!" Tyler says practically jumping up and down.
"Yeah I did. Thanks man, it's my favorite make up." I say giving him a hug.
I whisper over to Tylers ear. "Hey you doing okay? You have anxiety or anything, tell me and we'll go outside." He nods
"You too." He says back.
"Hey Tyler you wanna go get a drink with me?" Matty says and they leave. Now it's just me and josh. I don't get why all of a sudden I'm so hot and bothered by Josh. Me, him, and Tyler have all been friends since the fourth grade.
Then Brendon walks over to us with a bottle.
"Okay anyone who wants to play spin the bottle come over here!" Brendon yells. A few people walk over and sit down. I look at all the people. It's just Hayley Williams, a girl in my psych class. She's cute, Lynn one of my close friends, Melanie, Brendon, Pete, and me and josh.
"Okay I'll spin first because I'm bi and I like the best of both worlds." Brendon says happily.
"Same." I say without even thinking. Shit.
"Wait I thought you were just lesbian?" Josh says and everyone stares at me.
"Uh yeah I thought I was too. But where's the crime in liking both." I say loud and proud.
"Cool." Josh says
Brendon spins the bottle and it lands on Pete.
He reaches over and they make out for a good 20 seconds.
"Petes turn." Brendon yells
Pete spins and it lands on Lynn. They kiss.
Then Lynn spins and it lands on me. I'm actually very excited for this. She reaches over to me and kisses me softly. It was nice.
Oh it's my turn. I spin. Oh. Wow. Of course it lands on Josh. Okay I can do this.
Josh puts his hand in my hair and I rest my hand on his leg. We start to kiss. It feels like so much more than a kiss. We must've been kissing than longer than what we thought because Brendon nudges my arm. We stop kissing and they continue with the game. Josh looks at me and I look at my hands because I hate eye contact. Josh gets up and hold his hand out. I get up using his help and we walk over to the couch and sit down.
"Hey I didn't know you were bisexual." He says as we sit down. I feel my veins pumping.
"Yeah I didn't either until after me and Sarah broke up." I say and he smiles.
He comes closer to my face and gets and eyelash off my nose. He holds it up and begins to speak.
"Make a wish cutie." He says and I blush again.
I blow the eyelash off of his finger and we both giggle.
"Wanna go somewhere more quiet to talk?" He says and I nervously nod and stand up.
We walk into Brendon's bedroom. No one is in there. We sit on the bed and he looks at me.
"You know, you are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen." He says. I look down. He picks my chin up and we lock eyes. "I mean it."
I kiss him. And my oh my is it getting heated.
We are kissing and kissing and then he nibbles my ears. I let out a tiny moan. That's my favorite. He kisses my neck and I rub down his leg. I've never had sexual contact with a boy before. Only girls. I sit on his lap facing him and he only kisses me harder.
"Do you want to-" and before he can even finish his sentence I blurt out a yes. He nods and then takes off his shirt. Wow. I wrap my legs around his body and he stands up pushing me against the wall. Our kissing getting deeper and deeper. We sit back on the bed and be practically rips off my shirt. My black see-through lace bra is on and I'm so glad I wore that today. He kisses my chest and grabs my boob, squeezing it and I moan. I reach my hand down to his jeans and palm him through his pants. Or at least I think I am. He moans. I guess I am. He bits my lip and throws me on to the bed.
He pulls my pants off and stands there looking at me.
"You look so god damn beautiful." I smile and he picks me up again and sits me on his lap. I can feel his boner. I start to unbuckle his pants and then I remember.
"Stop." I say. Josh stops kissing me and gets his hands off. I stand up and sit on the bed. Putting my jeans back on.
"I'm sorry did I do something? I didn't mean to do something you didn't want." He says. He sounds so apologetic.
"No it's not you. I did want to. I just." I sigh
"Are you okay?" He sounds worried.
"Josh, the last time I had sex was with my girlfriend. And it wasn't even sex. She raped me. Countless times and then it came to the point where I just thought she did it out of love. So I gave in. And it's hard for me to do this. I'm sorry." Josh is silent and I just stare at my feet.
"Wow Sam. I'm so sorry. I don't even know what to say. I'm just so sorry. Why didn't you tell me before?" He says
"It's okay, it's not your fault." I say and he nods.
"Want me to beat her up?" He says and I can't help but laugh a little.
"No it's okay, Tyler has already threatened her many many times." I say
"Josh." I say
"Yes?"
"Do you like me or are you just horny?" I feel bad asking this question but I need the answer.
"Seriously?" Josh says. "I've liked you since the fourth grade but you've always said you like girls. I didn't know. Do you like me?"
"I liked you a bit before Sarah but I didn't come to terms with it. And right after Sarah broke up with me I could only think of you." I say back
He smiles. And I do too.
"Well let's restart. Maybe we can do this again another time. When we are both ready. But first lets go on a date. Do you want to go on a date with me?" He says and I nod.
"I would like that a lot." I say back and I grab my shirt and put it on. He puts his on too.
"Tomorrow night, I'll pick you up at 8?" He says. And I agree.
"I should go check on Tyler. Ill see you tomorrow night." I say and I kiss his forehead.
I leave the room and look for Tyler. Him and Matty are on the couch making out. They always do this at parties. It's already 11 pm. I grab Tyler's hand and we say our goodbyes.
"Tyler are you drunk?" He giggles and I can't help but laugh too.
"I guess I'm driving."
I drive us to my house and he stays the night.