Yoshiki

Words from me to you

My story has been silenced for long enough. I've come to hate how people ignore how much I've been through and how I managed to make it out alive. Everything has always been a simple nod of the head or "I've seen worse" kind of bullshit speech. 

I've come to hate how people think I'm happy, all in which I put a facade and smile on whenever people try to relate to the pain I felt. Nobody will ever be able to relate to the exact pain I've felt. I've tried to tell them my story, yet it never got through to them. They never understood the meaning past everything I've been through. They think by taking pity on me it would make me feel better, by saying they have been through the same thing that it would make me feel no different. No matter how many times I tell my story, it will never seem to reach people.

Maybe now is the time when people will finally understand. If I put what I've been through into detail maybe then they'll understand how shitty my perspective was. I've fought many battles and almost lost, but I managed to write all of them down. No matter how much pain writing this will bring me, I'm not going to let my story go untold. I'm done. I'm tired of people trying to tell me they've seen worse or I should be grateful or someone has been through more... Because I'm still fighting. 

My story will not go untold. 

- Yoshi.