One thing I learned and had to learn growing up is you have to let some things go. No matter what it is from the girl you were bestfriends with since you were little only to learn she was never really your friend, to the boy that broke your heart, to something someone said that effected in you a great way. But most importantly I learned you have to let go of the people you spelled you loved and it isnt easy. Letting go means getting rid of the things that are no longer good for you. Removing them from your life. Even when it seems tough. However, with letting go comes strength. I could spell out how many times I told someone i loved them and they said it back. But what is yours will always be yours. And what is not will never be and thats again where letting go plays a role. Its funny how so many people are so ready to get into the falling in love stage and the to be loved stage, but noone wants to reach the letting go stage, and thats why when they reach it they dont know what to do. I cant tell you how many times ive sat up crying myself to sleep or crying to the point there was no breath in me. I cant tell you how many people have left without notice or a explaination. I cant tell you how many people have returned to express that they missed me or how they realized a few things. I cant tell you how many times ive asked people who have left why did they leave and my only response is ," I dont know, I just felt like it." And i wonder how people can feel this way. Just wanting to get up and leave never closing the door behind them and wanting to return when it is covient to them. I cant tell you how many times people have told me they loved me, but i thought love was always suppose to be happiness not pain? i cant tell you how many times lies have escaped from peoples tongues to express it as a reality like it is okay. I have learned that people will use you. Break you. Down you. Make you feel alone. And guess who it always is? The people you love and the people who claim to love you. And that is when you have reached the letting go stage. No matter how much you got attached to the person, no matter how much you love the person or care about them, no matter how much time was spent together, no matter how much you wanna stay and comfort them when they never took time to comfort you, you must learn how to let go and let go.
