Most people are scared of thunderstorms. The boom of the thunder, the sudden flash of lightning. The heavy downpour of rain that follows. It frightens them. And I understand that fear to a certain point. The thunder is so loud that it shakes your house. The lightning is unpredictable. The heavy downpour of rain may not stop and it could flood.
Sure I understand that fear. But I don't have it. Thunderstorms calm me. I love the smell of the rain. And the boom of the thunder. The sudden flash of lightning that dances on the walls. It's like everything is being washed away. All my worries and my regrets. And in that moment I can just forget them.
And when the storm ends most people are relived. But I'm not. All of my worries and regrets come rushing back to me. I get snapped back into reality. That's the part I hate the most. Having to go back to reality, having to deal with the pain.
At least when the storm is still going strong, I can pretend that I don't have any pain. Any worries or any regrets. I can feel free. I can feel like the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Even if it is just for a little while....
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Notebook Thoughts
PoetrySome things that I have written down in my Notebook. ~Liddya <3
