I often have these voices in my head...
When I'm close to a road with cars driving at 100 mph, the voices tell me to jump in front of them...
Or when I see a bottle of pills, they tell me to take them all...
It happens almost every day... And I sometimes actually think about doing it...
I once almost jumped in front of a car... But the only thing stopping me from doing it is that my body won't move when I tell it to do as the voices say...
I was at the top of a very tall building a few days ago, and the fence wasn't that high. The voices were telling me to jump... I almost did... I walked up to the fence, and put my hand on it. I looked down, and thought about how no one would miss me. I almost jumped...
But the thing that stopped me from jumping, was my grandma calling my name...
On the way home, she told me how much I meant to her. She told me that I was her favorite grandchild. And she told me how she always loved it when I came to visit her almost every day after school... That made me happy, and that doesn't happen that often... But then I got sad... I got sad, because I can't visit her anymore. I only see her once a year... I'm happy I didn't jump... But I'm scared that one day, there won't be anyone to stop me. I'm scared that the voices will take over, and make me jump...
