Poetry?

what is this?

I can never get rid of you,you will forever have a hold on me.....forever be apart of me......but do I want that?...I -I don't know I love you I really do but you are just running around in my mind messing with me until you want to leave and then you do and I'm sad or mad I don't know but all I know is you where here one second and then poof gone the next like lightning hitting the ground that warm and yet piercing feeling of your presence and then just cold when you leave and still marked by your presence I try to forget you but you are like a scare that will never go away but I'm still not sure if your a scare with a good memory or bad left behind

And now your back and I'm just hoping your here to save me from the depths of the future not haunt me with the fumes of the past

And after all of this is it sad to say I still love you?