It was 2am when I woke up my phone was tooken from me so I couldn't talk to her but I woke up from a night mare. It was of her and him. I.. I didn't want to think that the dream was one of the dreams where it would become true later. And so far it hasn't been like that. But I was saddened by the dream. I laid there tossing and turning in my bed not being able to sleep. I started crying? Why was I crying over a stupid dream? I sobbed into my pillow and looked onto the dresser near my bed. It had a razor blade. I stared at it for a moment to soon grab it. I looked at it.
"I-is this a good idea?" I ask myself.
".... They did it to be happy and to calm down.." I say staring at the piece of metal of which was in my hand.
"Just fucking do it.."
I pull my pants down and put the metal onto my thigh. I make a quick slice along it. I saw little blood come out so I kept slicing and slicing on my thigh. I then cut at some of the stretch marks on my waist. My leg soon after 18 cuts was a little bit of a bloody mess.
"T-there.." I say aloud placing the razor back onto the dresser. My stomach turned into knots as I wiped the blood off my leg.
I didn't sleep for a other two hours after that.
I wake up the next morning feeling dizzy I walk out of my room and into the living room my grandfather gives me back my phone and I go into my room.
"Love I... I self harmed.."
"Conner why..?"
"I-.. I was alone I didn't have you with me I didn't have you.. I had a dream of you cheating on me and-.... I just.. I couldn't."
"Conner I would never..! You know that.."
"I k-know but still.."
I could feel her tears drop onto her screen.
"Conner.."
"Y-yes..?"
"Please..?"
"I'll try..."
"Good."
"I love you.. And only you."
"I love you to.. Always and forever?"
"Always and forever."
